Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Sometimes, I feel that I am too revealing. And I feel bad about that.

I knew that there are things that I should keep to myself. But, most of the time, I just blurted them up to others.

And I really hate the feeling when I just realized that I have made a big mistake by telling them to other people. I am not talking about "revealing other people's story" here but I am concern about "revealing too much of my feeling, my point of view and my own self" to others.

I just feel that sometimes, honesty is not the best policy!! Some things are better left unsaid.

I feel terribly guilty by letting the people around me listen to every single piece of my mind.
I just think "Who the &^%$ I am for people to listen to and bear with all the time?".
And therefore, I am so SORRY...SORRY...SORRY... for crossing that boundaries ;(

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Some people may not be able to understand what I am trying to convey here. And I don't blame them for that. I just confused with myself. Even up to this point of life, I haven't even "know and understand" what kind of person I am and what kind of person I want to be.
If even I myself, feeling uncomfortable with my own personality, what more other people, right?

People everywhere keep on saying "just be yourself!!" But how can you be yourself when you don't even comfortable with it. I am not trying to be someone else here but I just wonder why is it so difficult to bring about changes when you knew that you really need it?

I knew this entry sounds a bit emotional and I am so sorry for that. Please accept the fact that I am just experiencing "jiwa kacau" right now. It is just that, whenever I feel like accepting myself for who I am, the thought of changing to be a better a better person suddenly bugging me...not once but many times...
And, CHANGES AREN'T EASY FOR ME TO MAKE even I knew it is for better >>> that's my BIG PROBLEM.

Salam~

p/s: There are things about yourself (e.g: physical traits) that are fixed and can't be altered...and I can cope with that...this is what we called "accept yourself for who you are".
But, there are many other things about yourself (particularly your not-so-good-characters) that possibly be changed only when you manage to change your ATTITUDE about it...and this is the most difficult thing to do for someone like me...duhh...

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Semalam ada seorang budak tu emosi tak tentu pasal. Menangis gara-gara panggilan kene reject. Ceh! Kot ye pun, x yah la emosi sangat. Kena la faham situasi. Bukan orang tu sengaja nak reject, cuma keadaan je tak mengizinkan. Cool babe, be rational ^^
(eh, mungkin gak die sedang tensi @ susah hati masa tu. Mana la kita tau ;P)

Semalam gak, saya tiba2 teringat seorang budak memori semalam (BMS). Ni semua gara2 berchatting dengan kawan2 plkn. Wah, dah hampir empat tahun rupanya memori itu saya simpan kemas...hehe. Sebenarnya, tak pernah ada apa2 memori pun antara kami, cuma saya je yang mencipta memori tu...haha...kantoi!! Saya ingat lagi, saya pernah bagi nasihat rahsia semasa kami satu kumpulan bertukar2 mesej sewaktu latihan di kem hampir tamat. Memang la berani sebab anonymous (x pernah buat keje gile n bodo ni kalau ade crush ngan sesape;P). Nobody knows who is writing what to whom unless they recognize the handwriting...ngee. Tapi saya cuak gak la lepas bagi nasihat tu. Ala, bukan tulis apa pun, just nasihat supaya rajin belaja dan kurangkan merokok je kot...haha. Apapun, saya doakan BMS menjalani kehidupan yang diberkati dan diredhai. Ada rezeki, kita jumpa lagi. Jangan lupa jemput saya bila kamu kawin nanti ^^ (sebenarnya, tuan empunya diri pun x tahu dia adalah BMS saya...huhu). Tu semua cerita zaman kanak2...masih hingusan lagi sebab tu ada BMS segala. Sekarang yang ada cume kisah masa kini dan masa hadapan =)

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I knew it's typical kalau lelaki suka perempuan cun. And I think it is universally acknowledged kot. Sape yang tak sukakan kecantikan. It think the same goes with women as well. Questions like: "Eh, hensem tak husband/boyfriend die?" and "Eh, cun tak wife/awek die?" sangatla typical among masayarakat kita. Tak kisah la orang yang bertanya tu kacak atau tidak, lawa atau tidak. It's like asking "buat pe tu?" even you knew exactly what the person is doing (in the context of Malaysian society) and "how's the weather today?" (in the context of Western society). But, my point here is that to what extent physical outlook is prioritized in choosing life partner? I just wonder, zaman sekarang ni, physical appearance masih jadi leading criteria ke?
Hmm...semuanya bergantung kepada individual judgement kan. There's no right or wrong answer for this. Afterall, beauty is an abstract concept. It lies in the eyes of beholder pun kan =)

Salam~

p/s 1: teringat hadith nabi dalam memilih pasangan...ada 4 criteria kan.
1) hartanya
2) keturunannya
3) kecantikannya
4) agamanya...maka pilihlah yang memiliki agama...semoga beroleh keberuntungan.

p/s 2: For me, agama should be the most salient criteria. Sangat banyak cabang agama yang perlu dipelajari, dikuasai dan diamalkan untuk meningkatkan iman dan taqwa. So, it is something that is continuously undergo changes and development (tapi wishing without trying pun x best gak kan;P)
Emm...yang lain2 tu hanyalah bonus pada saya because those other criteria are to some degree fixed and cannot be altered. Kalau dapat sesuatu yang EXTRA...ALHAMDULILLAH, for I don't have a good deal to offer...ngee

p/s 3: kenapa entry ni berunsur (*^%^*) duhhh...layan je la ;P

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Pagi tadi saya dan housemate ke Central Station, hantar kawan dari Brisbane tu ke airport. InsyaAllah, dua minggu lagi kami akan berjumpa semula. Tapi, waktu tu, dia pula jadi tuan rumah...kami jadi tetamu =)

Hmm...dah berjam2 saya duduk depan komputer mengadap assignment yang perlu saya siapkan sebelum cuti mid sem dua minggu lagi. Hmm...susahnya bila mengalami masalah "writer's block".
"You had so many things in your mind, yet you just don't know how to start writing it." Everything is just everywhere and organization doesn't seems to be a simple and easy task to do ;-(

Camne ek nak buat. Saya dah mati akal dah ni. Serba tak kene di buatnya. Ini bukan latihan matematik yang saya boleh trus je mengira...even ade la gak part calculation sket...(eh, lexical density tu involve calculation gak ape^^) Hmm...camne ni...tulun2!!

Rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir
Rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir
Rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir

"Jika Allah menolong kamu, maka tidak adalah orang yang dapat menolong kamu. Jika Allah membiarkan kamu, maka siapakah gerangan yang dapat menolong kamu selain dari Allah sesudah itu? Kerana itu hanya kepada Allah sahaja orang-orang mukmin bertawakkal" (3:160)

Salam~

ni membalas semula tag from lisa...

THE RULES

* Link to your tagger and post these rules.

* List (8) random facts about yourself and

* Tag (8) people.

* INTRODUCTION

First Name – Amrien
Nickname – Amrien, Am, Riyen, Ina,
Name you wish you had – ntah...ske je name ni=)
What do people normally mistake your name - spelling mistakes: Amrin / Amrein & pronunciation mistakes: Am-ri-yen / Em-ri-yen / Am-ri / A-mi-rin / Am-run (this is least likely tolerable...Gerard oh Gerard)
Birthday- 19 Nov 1986
Birthplace – Hospital Banting
Time of Birth – 10.30 a.m
Single or taken – single until taken...haha
Zodiac sign - Scorpio

* YOUR APPEARANCES

How tall are you – 164-165 cm
Wish you were taller – dulu la...skrg x lagi =)
Eye color – dark brown
Eye color you want – never thought of.
Natural Hair color – black
Current Hair color - black
Short or long hair – emm...botak...hahaha
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color – tak terfikir langsung...
Curly,Straight,Wavy - emm...
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair – when I was in primary school...galak sgt main sikat...simpul2 rambut sampai tersangkut....hehe
Glasses or contacts – glasses
Do you wear make-up – me? make-up? heh
Ever had hair extensions - tak la
Paint your nails – inai kire x?

* IN THE OPPOSITE GENDER

What color eyes – apa2 je
What color hair – black better kot
Shy or Outgoing – sedang2
Looks or personality – depends...but personality wins kot
Sexy or Cute – ntah la
Serious or Fun – both would be interesting
Older or Younger than you – do age matters? but older would be interesting^^
A turn on – ntahla...nak on kipas ke ape ni
A turn off - tak tau la...ssh nak cakap =)

* THIS OR THAT

Flowers or Chocolate – depends on mood...both i like
Pepsi or Coke – pepsi kot
Rap or Rock – neither
Relationship or One night stand - u think?
School or Work – both
Love or Money – both.
Movies or Music - music kot
Country or City – emm...hard to decide
Sunny or Rainy days – in between :D
Friends or Family – family then friends

* HAVE YOU EVER

Lied – cam selalu jer...maybe kene kurangkan...hehehe
Stole something – stole ppl's heart...muahaha
Smoked – TAK NAK
Hurt someone close to you - sorry for that
Broke someone's heart - ntah...maybe yes, maybe no
Had your heart broken – ade gak la
Wondered what was wrong with you – selalu je.
Wish you were a prince/princess – dulu la masa kecik2...i am contend with my life now!!
Liked someone who was taken – pernah gak la
Shaved your head – no
Been in love - everyday
Used chopsticks – tak pandai
Sang in the mirror to yourself – macam selalu je....hahaha
Ever cried over someone - yezza
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself – my bad characteristics for sure
Do you think you’re attractive – i never give a damn to think about that
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose - tak la...i never like dreaming to be anyone else...i just love the reality
Do you play any sports – pondok2 (cikgu jawa said it is considered as sports too =)

* FAVORITES

Flower – banyak la...hard to decide
Candy – no specific ones (belasah je sume...except certain type)
Song – slow songs with gud melody
Scent – soft n sweet
Color – colourful
Movie – d ones dat plays wif emotions, or d ones dat r able to make me cry.haha ;p (quote lisa...sama la taste kite)
Singer – ntah...tak de yang specific
Words - poyo / macam / bongek / batak / seyh / gile
Junk food - biscuits n bread (ni kire junk food x =)
Website – my blog, other ppl's blogs, friendster, nab, news, uni's
Lotion – vaseline
Anime – slamdunk

and i want to tag: those who want to do it...sila2

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

ada orang kata, kalau kita cepat je spot kekurangan orang atau sesuatu benda, kekurangan tu sebenarnya ada pada kita sendiri (tak tau la camne nak put it in better way^^)

contohnya : kalau kite claim "eh, dia tu tak sensitif langsung...consider la perasaan orang lain".
sebenarnya : character "tak sensitif" dan "tak considerate" tu mungkin ada pada kita.
mungkin kita tak sedar tentang tu tapi cuba kita tanya orang lain...yang jujur menyatakan tanpa cuba berselindung demi menjaga hati kita...hehe

tak tau la benda ni betul atau tak...mungkin ada kebenarannya dan mungkin juga hanya generalization semata-mata. tapi, tak salahkan kalau kita muhasabah diri daripada asyik buat commentary pasal orang lain^^

p/s: Kengkadang, takut nak menerima criticism. Kita mungkin mengaku yang kita jenis "menerima kritikan" tapi sejauh mana kita boleh menerima kritikan? It's not about whether you can accept criticism or not but it's about to what extent you can accept criticism...hehe...something to think about.

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T.

Hari sabtu lepas, saya dan housemate menjemput kawan yang baru sampai dari Brisbane. Kawan kami yang seorang tu berhajat nak menghabiskan cuti easter yang seminggu di Sydney. Memandangkan kami bertolak agak lewat, kami pun tiba hampir sejam lewat dari waktu ketibaan kawan kami tu. Kesian dia terpaksa menunggu lama.

Alkisahnya, saya dan housemate ni memang jarang la keluar rumah. Jadi, kami tak mahir sangat selok-belok jalan dan transportation route ni. Semenjak beberapa hari sebelum kami ke airport tu, kami asyik bertanya rakan2 lain..."eh, berapa ek harga train tix ke airport?", "eh, nanti kne change train kat ne ek?", "eh, sydney terminal tu kat ne ek?"...macam2 la lagi soalan. Cemas sugguh gayanya kan =). Even sampai on the day itself, kami masih blur. Mujur kami bertanya pada pakcik kat train station tu. Baik orangnya. Jelas penerangannya. Siap buat announcement khas untuk kami - train mana yang harus kami ambil dan waktunya. Inilah kisah pertemuan dengan orang baik episod 1.

Hari ahad pula, kami menemani kawan kami tu ke city i.e. Sydney City. Memandangkan kami tinggal agak jauh dari city, kami perlu keluar agak awal sebab perjalanan memakan masa lebih kurang 40 minit ke sejam - bergantung kepada trafik. Sebenarnya kami hanya sempat melawati beberapa tempat sahaja seperti Darling Harbour, Chinese Garden, Paddy's Market, Manly Beach, Royal Botanical Garden dan Sydney Opera House. Tempat yang paling menarik bagi saya sudah tentunya Chinese Garden. Reason? Saya, housemate dan kawan dari Brisbane dengan galaknya telah menyewa Chinese Custome dengan bayaran $10. Okla. Bukan selalu pun. Walaupun saya kurang gemar bergambar sebelum ini, saya telah bergambar sakan semalam. Ni kira buang tebiat la...hihi. Ala, bukan selalu kan dapat pakai camtu =). Terasa macam pengantin pun ada bila ada session tukar2 baju tu...hahaha. Gambar akan diupload kemudian untuk tatapan orang2 kampung...hehe.

Alkisahnya lagi, kami yang selalu ambil bas 288 tetiba pula buang tebiat ambil bas 518 untuk pulang ke rumah hari tu. Memandangkan sudah seharian kami berpoya2 kat city (selepas berpicnic n solat maghrib @ Sydney Opera House sambil ambil gambar pemandangan waktu malam^^), kami hanya fikir untuk cepat sampai rumah waktu tu. Masing2 dah tak larat lagi nak menapak dah. Pukul 8.47 malam, bas 518 pun sampai. Sebelum kami naik, kami memang dah tanya driver bas tu samada die akan stop kat macquarie uni atau tak. Dan jawapannya adalah "Ya". Naik je bas, masing2 occupy satu baris seat yang sepatutnya untuk dua pessenger tu. Sume memang dah tak larat dah. Sambil bas berjalan, kami pun menikmati pemandangan malam memandangkan laluan bas tu agak kurang familiar untuk kami. Sampai di suatu tempat yang kami tak tau pun kat mana, driver bas tu tetiba stop dan claim yang that is the final stop. Kami pun..."huh? kat mana ni?" Dah la gelap gelita...sunyi pulak tu. Kedai2 semua dah tutup. It's only 9.30 p.m.and most Australian seems to be sleeping agaknya.

Kami pun dengan mati akalnya terusla berjalan kat kawasan sekeliling. Manatau ade jumpa manusia lain...leh la tanya direction nak ke train station at least. Jumpa petrol station, tanya one guy ni. Dia pun explain la direction nak ke train station. Mula2 tu memang la paham....turn left, right, go straight...pastu hampeh tak paham. Makin lama makin laju plak die cakap...mungkin nak cepat kot sebab die memang niat nak bayar petrol je masa tu. Berpandukan explanation seorang mamat yang kami tak berapa nak paham tu, kami pun terus berjalan dengan gamblenya. Jalan punya jalan, kami tetiba nampak kelibat manusia. Teus meluru kearahnya dan bertanya direction ke train station. Tak sedar sebenarnya kami sedang berada di kawasan gereja. Opps!! Lelaki ni plak claim yang train station sangat jauh. Agak mustahil untuk menapak. Die pun bertanya pada wife die kalau2 si isteri ni boleh tolong hantar kami ke universiti. Ahh, baiknya. Dan nak dijadikan cerita, si isteri ni pun tolong hantarkan kami ke universiti. Baikkan =) Inilah kisah kedua tentang orang baik yang saya jumpa dalam tempoh dua hari.

p/s 1: Dulu saya agak prejudice pada orang putih sbb ramai orang kata mereka racist. Walaupun memang ada beberapa orang yang macamtu, masih ramai juga yang baik hati tau =)

p/s 2: Saya selalu rasa tak sedap hati kalau orang buat baik dengan saya sebab saya rasa tak diserve untuk mendapat layanan yang baik macam tu. Kebaikan orang buat saya rasa sangat terharu dan rasa macam nak menangis. Mungkin tu sebenarnya hint dari Allah supaya saya pun selalu buat baik pada orang lain. InsyaAllah, saya akan cuba amalkan.

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

First of all, thanks to Fina for inviting me to read her blog. Actually, it was me who demands it ^^. When I read her entry about "trusting people", I started pondering whether or not I am the kind of person who easily trust people. This is a pretty hard judgement to make for I have to decide which group of people I belong to - group A (easily trust people) or group B (vice versa)...hmm.

Basically, I think that there is no clear cut-off to define a person as type A or type B. What sort of measurement do we consider when classifying people. Even if we've listed some criteria or situation (like normal questionnaire usually does), where do we draw the line between type A or type B. Is numerical score per se enough to classify people for being such and such. So for me, this is not an easy claim to make.

For me, I would view the concept of trustness as a process. Usually when we met someone, we tend to (not necessarily) have doubt in the person (though there's some cases where we immediately knew that we can trust the person by simply looking at the face...I won't deny this!). I would consider having doubt or curiosity as the first stage in building trustness for it is the key for us know more about the person. After several contacts with the person (meeting, chatting, laughing), we started to discover more about the person. The longer we spend our time with the person (especially if we stay together with the person more than three days), the greater we knew about them since the the true characters will gradually shown up eventhough the person was iniatially pretending or faking to be someone else (like me sometimes^^). It is along the process of knowing that we decide whether to trust the person or not.

I would say that for every different person around me, I would have different degree of trustness for each of them. This is to say that the level of trustness that I set would vary according to individual. The level itself is not fix but flexible. It can increse or decrease depending on several factors like the closeness, the subject matter as well as other simple matters that I find difficult to describe them here.

Take an example, I have four friends: A, B, C, and D. Let's say I have a big new...emm...say getting married or broke up with a boy friend (huh?). And the first person to know is A. It is only a week later that B, C and D knew about it. In this situation, B, C and D should never get me wrong for not informing them earlier. It is not that I didn't trust them but like I said, it is the level of trustness that varies. This is the fact that many of us have to take note especially in a relationship so that we don't easily get offended when we feel that we've been left out (a note for me too ^^).

So, my point here is that, I do trust most people around me (read: those whom I knew) BUT it's the degree of trustness that differs. I don't like to have sceptical attitude toward someone (though sometimes I cannot help but do so^^). Even in ISLAM, we are encourage to practice HUSNUZZON i.e. having good perception towards someone else =)

Salam~

p/s: eh...do you think I can be trusted?...ngee...

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

*****semalam*****

Semalam memang saya bengang dengan lecturer V sebab tegur kami berdua publicly masa dalam lecture hall. Kami cuma bercakap satu ayat saja dan dia terus emo....saying that we have distract her. Hello, bukan kitorang sesaja borak2 pasal mimpi malam semalam ke ape ke...kitorang cuma confuse sebab power point notes yang kitorang print tak sama dengan power point yang KAMU present masa dalam kelas. Kenapa kamu change last minit? Kot ye pun, cek la awal2. Tak la kitorang sangap ke'confus'an. Tak pasal2 saya kene salin notes even dah print handouts. Dan tak pasal2 gak saya kene marah dengan kamu free2 je depan semua orang. Sabar je la.

TAPI SEMALAM SAYA MEMANG EMO DENGAN KAMU.
LAST SEM PUN KAMU 'BUAT HAL' DGN SAYA.
APA SALAH SAYA?
SAYA TAK PERNAH PONTENG KELAS KAMU TAU...DAN ALHAMDULILLAH, SAYA SCORE SUBJEK KAMU LAST SEM.
SO, APA MASALAH KAMU SEBENARNYA?????
KENAPA KAMU TREAT SAYA MACAM NI?
(nota: sila baca dengan nada monotenous sahaja, jangan raise the pitch sebab ini bukan bertujuan untuk lepas geram tapi sekadar monolog dalaman =p)

tapi, saya dah OK dah...dan saya TAK MARAH kamu lagi...sebab saya rasa TAK WORTH IT simpan grudge ke kamu =P

p/s 1: akhlak yang baik tak tumbuh macam lalang...saya perlu berusaha lagi...ayuh, berusahalah!!!

p/s 2: moral of the story: insyaAllah, saya tak nak jadi cikgu macam kamu...emo memanjang...xtau lah...buat2 la bersabar kot ye pun...hehehe (pesanan kpd diri sendiri)


*****hari ini*****

kenapa saya tak de kemahiran bersukan?
adakah saya dilahirkan with inability to play games or sports?
ahhh.....kenapa saya tergolong dalam kalangan "kaki dan tangan bangku"....hehehe
mungkin telah berlakunya gen mutation dulu2 =)

p/s 1: saya tetap BERSYUKUR dengan kejadian diri saya ini. Saya percaya setiap manusia ade KELEBIHAN MASING2 which I have YET TO DISCOVER...hehe

p/s 2: tetiba saya rasa dua2 cerita berbaur "emo" padahal tak pun. mungkin saya telah menggunakan linguistic choice yang salah...that's why the actual purpose of this entry is defeated. saya nak tulis "recount" je sebenarnya...hehehe

Salam~

berjalan dibumi yang tandus ini penuh duri
tanpa sedar dan penuh lalai
usia beredar penuh kezaliman dan kemusnahan

mengembara mencari dunia hakiki
tiada jumpa arah yang sejati
tiada pembimbing petunjuk jalan yang suci
hidup terumbang-ambing sendiri
sendiri...

Tuhanku
dengarlah bicara hati ini
dariku insan sering tersisih
di lautan penuh dosa dan noda
demi mencari secebis kasihMu

Tuhanku
tangan ini menadah sayu
keampunan di perjalanan jauh
semoga di terima di sisi Mu
sebagai bekalan negeri abadi

menempuh sayu
perjalanan pahit
dalam kembara
mencari diri
mengharap sinar
terangi hati
yang sekian lama menutup jiwa

p/s : kenangan di bumi waqafan

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

I should labelled yesterday as "fat open day". Since morning, I have been consuming more and more of calories...or I better name it as "FAT @ LEMAK".

Firstly, as early as 11 a.m., I have had a plate of some baked macaroni and cheese + some pasta with tomato sauce + a piece of barbeque chicken drumstick + some mayonnaise salad. I also had two slices of chocolate cake + a cup of Coke for the dessert.

TOTAL = ? (not the cost of money but the CALORY contained in those food)

p/s: This is the PRICE I have to pay for attending a FREE bbq party organized by the juniors. Thanks btw sisters and brothers. The food was superb!!!

Secondly, at 6 p.m, Syikin "suddenly" made cream puffs >>>>> hate it but love it. Hate it because she made it on the wrong day ;P but love it because I have been craving for it since the first time she mentioned it weeks before.

Cream puffs = Flour + Sugar + Eggs + Butter + Castard powder

TOTAL = ? (priceless...I don't want to bother about the "C" thing for this tremendously delicious food made by Syikin the Cooking Master...ala, kuih tu kecik je saiz die...kekeke)

Finally, the most critical moment of the day came when I "suddenly" (again) decided to make chicken lasagne. We had plan to make this so-called-western-food-la-kunun since few days ago. And I don't know why of all the days we had, I chose yesterday....(why it must be YESTERDAY!!! We ate this at 9 p.m...what a time!!!


Chicken lasagne = Oil + Chopped onion + Lasagne bake + Minced chicken + Carrot + Capsicum + Mozarella cheese + Fresh milk + Flour + Lasagne sheet

TOTAL = ? (scary...never calculate of else u'll be dead ^^...This is the PRICE I have to pay for being such a HARDWORKING COOK yesterday)

p/s: I never imagined that lasagne contains such a **** amount of ******. When we both preparing the lasagne, I suddenly said this to Syikin, "Syikin, ko tak takut ke tengok bahan-bahan die camtu...hish, takutnyer". And then she replied, "Baik ko xyah tengok Amrien. Makan je nanti". My response, ...ngee... (as if I took a balanced diet before...hehe...bread with butter and sugar, chocolate spread, chocolate, cocunut milk...what's that all ^^) It was just that I never consume too much CHEESY FOOD all this while...hehe.


Coda : Because of all those meal I ate yesterday, I officially declared SATURDAY, 15 MARCH 2008 as "FAT OPEN DAY"

Any objection?

Salam~

p/s 1: Recipes and the real pictures of the cream puff and chicken lasagne will be posted soon. Have to wait for the Cooking Master's green light first=)

p/s 2: Maybe I better fast a.s.a.p. and a.f.a.p. to keep me healthy and to preserve myself from Jin Mona's attack ^^

"Dan tidaklah sama kebaikan dengan kejahatan. Tolaklah (kejahatan itu) dengan cara yang lebih baik, sehingga orang yang ada rasa permusuhan antara kamu dan dia akan seperti teman yang setia. Dan (sifat-sifat yang baik itu) tidak akan dianugerahkan kecuali kepada orang-orang yang sabar dan tidak dianugerahkan kecuali kepada orang-orang yang mempunyai keberuntungan yang besar"
(41 : 34 & 35)

Sabda Rasulullah: "Sebaik-baik anak Adam ialah orang yang lambat marahnya dan segera pula reda bila sudah marah dan sejahat-jahat anak Adam ialah orang yang lekas marahnya dan lambat pula reda marah itu"

p/s: thanks Syal for the reminder^^

ku tutup mataku

dari semua pandanganku
bila melihat matamu
ku yakin ada cinta
ketulusan hati yang mengulir lembut

penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku

andaikan ku bisa lebih adil
pada cinta kau dan dia
aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
ku tak luput dari dosa

biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
takdir cinta harus begini
ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau
oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku

penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Saya baru berkesempatan men'transfer' gambar from mobile phone saya ke laptop. Tetiba, terjumpa pula gambar mereka yang saya ambil sewaktu pulang bercuti summer sebulan lalu. Saya tersenyum sendiri melihat telatah mereka. Ah, sangat rindu!!!

scene 1: mengada2...ngee^^
...rindu...

scene 2: ntah apa la yang lucu sangat tuh
...rindu lagi...

scene 3: main hantu-hantu (makcik "sinting" die ni la yang tolong ajar...hehe)
...lagi-lagi rindu...

scene 4: abang cium adik....comey =B
...rindu dengan sangat...

scene 5: ah..dua2 control...x larat
(dulu pun pernah ade gamba camni gak...hehe)
..."nana rindu danishes...tulun2!!!"...

Tu je nak tulis untuk kali ni...huhu

Salam~

p/s: kepada iman dan qiqi...edisi untuk kamu nana buat kemudian k...gamba kamu ada dalam mobile phone lagi satu...tak transfer lagi...
nana x bias tau...nana sayang sume...ngee^^

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Kelas hari ni sangat best. Lecture yang diberi oleh Grant Kleeman cukup menarik bagi saya. Mungkin tak la menarik sangat bagi yang lain, tapi saya punya pemangkin yang cukup baik untuk buat saya terus mendengar tiap baris ayat daripada lecturer yang tak berapa muda dan tak berapa tua tu...hehehe (Syal, ko mesti tau sebab ape kan ^^). Plus today, this is the third lecture and alhamdulillah belum lagi saya mengantuk dalam kelas like I used to last semester masa kelas George Cooney. Tak tau la sebab ape last sem sangat horror saya mengantuk dalam kelas dia. Waktunya sama je...9-11 a.m. tapi saya memang mengantuk ya amat dalam kelas tu. Asyik tertido je. Saya tak pernah miss lecture George dan saya tak pernah juga miss untuk tido dalam kelas dia...hehe. Natijahnya, dek kerana syok sangat tido dalam kelas dia...dapatla result yang "tido" jugak. What to say kan..."cognitive development tetiba terbantut lak untuk subjek tu". Mungkin faktor subject tu yang agak "content-based", ditambah lak dengan gaya penyampaian yang sangat la romantik plus pronunciation dia yang sehabis "native" tu buat saya terkulai di perjalanan (read: ni alasan semata2...hehe). Tapi untuk subject sem ni, unit converner adalah Grant Kleeman yang dari last sem lagi dah diusha oleh KAMI...hehe. Selain subject ni agak lebih sempoi berbanding Educational Assessment last sem, gaya penyampaian Grant yang bertenaga dan pronunciation dia yang jelas pun sangat menbantu saya untuk mengikut tiap patah bicaranya sewaktu memberi lecture. Macam ni, barula bersemangat =)

Hari ni gak bermula presentation microteaching untuk kumpulan saya. Claudia and Amy are the first two yang present hari ni. Amy present pasal "memory strategies" dan Claudia plak present pasal "Asperger's Syndrome". Topik Claudia ni agak "factual-based". So, in ten minutes, sangat la banyak unfamiliar info yang kitorang dapat. Dalam hati "ape kebende ko cakap ni Claudia". Yela, what do you expect kan. This is totally new thing for many of us and dia plak pulun bercerita pasal benda ni. Apalagi...bagi orang2 yang punya short attention span ni...tak ambil lama untuk fikiran ni menerawang ke mana-mana...hehe. Tetiba, "Yes Amrien. Do you think these children want to mix with other friends?" Gulp...mak ai...mampus. Dengan selamba pun saya jawab. "Yeah, I think they want to but they will face some difficuluties to do so. So, they'll feel demotivated". Hambik ko, ntah pape la jawapan ni. Bantai je la. Nasib dia terus tanya orang lain lepas tu. Saya plak, terus pandang Lisa and Iffah kat sebelah tu sambil sengeh2 je...haha...kantoi!! Moral of the story: Tolong la jangan berangan masa orang buat presentation tambah2 lagi kalau ade name tag kat atas meja. Tu namanya sengaja mencari nahas...ngee ^^

Habis je kelas pukul 1, terus pergi MC. Konon nak cari bulb yang cahaya putih tu. Dari last year lagi dah merungut2 pasal lighting kat bilik...tapi tak beli2 pun bulb lain. Tapi bila semalam Syikin cam mengadu pening kepala because of the lighting, rasa cam kena gak cari bulb tu hari ni. Lampu kat bilik sekarang ni warna oren, sakit mata tau. Ni stok2 lampu romantik tu. Takkan la sepanjang masa nak beromantik je kan. Kot yer pun nak save energy...bajet2 la pilih bulb tu MUV ni pun. Punya la cari then jumpa la satu ni die tulis..."warm white colour". Dengan yakin nyer pun beli la sebab Iffah pun kate nak gak cari bulb tu. Sampai je rumah, terus tukar bulb. Excited nih. Hmm...hampeh gak...takde maknenya "white colour". Same je. Lagi romantik ada la. Hish...tertekan btul (takla sangat pun sebenarnya). Yer yer je dah berangan untuk menikmati pencahayaan yang menenangkan...sudahnya, hasrat masih juga tak kesampaian. Takpela...ni namanya kena sabar dan cuba lagi di lain masa...kekeke.

Salam~

p/s: Dulu tak minat dan tak pernah peduli langsung pasal politik. Tapi, sekarang ni kalau baca newspaper online, mesti baca pasal politik dulu (sebab memang itupun yang kat frontpagE kan sekarang ni...hehe). Harap2 politik negara akan kembali stabil dan begitu jupa harapannya pada politik negeri terchenta ^^

kenapa dari tadi saya tak mampu pun nak habiskan reading untuk esok?
asyik off -task je...lebey2 lagi bile membaca di depan laptop...ade lagu, ade internet...
tak sampai lima minit...dah hilang tumpuan...

hmm....apa dah jadi dengan janji2 manis yang saya pernah buat dulu?
KENAPA SAYA MESTI MALAS??
tak boleh jadi ni...
JIN MONA HARUS DIHAPUSKAN!!!
katakan TAK NAK kepada KEMALASAN...
ayuh!!!
GAMBATTE!!!

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Hari ini saya nak menceritakan kebengangan saya kerana tak boleh mendownload lagu. Sebenarnya masalah ni dah lama dihadapi, tapi baru hari ni rasa cam nak express my dissapointment kat blog ni.

Tak tau la kenapa ek sekarang ni susah sangat nak download lagu. I would admit that I am the kind of person who's not celik IT, but all this while, whenever I want to download any songs, I just google search. Lepas tu banyak la keluar list-list website yang leh download lagu. All this while, my preferred website used to be the multiply site sebab senang je nak download lagu dari situ. I even had one account of multiply tapi dah terminate the account sebab selalu je unattended. Doing more than one thing at once or what we called "multi-tasking" is so not my ability. Mesti nanti ade je yang sampai tahap nyawa-nyawa ikan. Ni kes tak pandai berlaku adil la ni sebab care for my blogspot more than my multiply account. Tu tak termasuk lagi account friendster yang seperti nyawa di hujung tanduk gak. Itu pun ade orang suggest suruh buat account facebook la, flixter la, monster la...sorry la...I have problems in handling too many things...dua pun dah kire banyak for me. Ni plak kes bersederhana...haha

Okay, berbalik kepada cerita mendownload ni, kalau la ade sesapa tahu cara mendownload or website mendownload lagu yang best2 dan user friendly...sila la beritahu saya. Saya dah bosan dah dengar lagu2 dalam playlist saya. Sampai dah hafal dah susunan lagu2 tu. Teringin gak nak dengar lagu2 baru. Ni nnti, lagu dah basi...baru saya dapat dengar...tu pun atas ihsan orang lain. Dulu kita yang jadi org 1st....skrg ni kita plak yang tertinggal. It's so frustrating when we can't do what we want to do =) Takpe, kali ni kena apply konsep sabar plak...hehe.

Salam~

p/s 1: sendiri letak lagu kat blog...sendiri dengar berkali2...ni kes tak dapat download lagu la ni...kekeke...kesian...dah buta IT....nak buat camne kan^^

p/s 2: tetiba suka plak dengar lagu sambil baca buku...sejak bila habit ni develop pun saya tak pasti...kalau xde lagu, sure tido atas buku punyalah...hehe

p/s 3: rindu nak karaoke ngan salina...tu aktiviti harus sewaktu hujung minggu sewaktu kat ipba...karaoke kat bilik sampai kene marah cik ramlan...kekeke. nak buat cane, kitorang xnak glamer2 masuk realiti show, so, apartment mates la jadi mangsa ktrg...hehehe. rindu sal...muaXX

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Hmm, feeling kinda excited yesterday upon hearing that "she's pregnant!!!". Actually, I have thought about it even before I knew the news officially from another friend. Reading her shoutout here and there made me suspicious of what's actually happening to her...and I think that "the pregnancy issue" is what mostly possible for her right now - at least from my own interpretation ^^.

If people ever asked me what I think of her, my answer would definitely be; "she's brave, strong and full of determination". Having married at the 20-years of age, being away from the husband for almost 2 years, and now, having a baby without the loved ones being around ---> she's totally admirable!!!

Dear "she"... I never expected that the things we said last week has finally turned into reality. Indeed, we are all happy for you and you have the rights to feel happy too. You deserved it!!! My only advice is that, don't think too much about the things that may comes next. Allah will always be with you.

"Verily, along with every hardship is relief.
Verily, along with every hardship is relief"
(94:5-6)

Go girl...You can do it!!! Believe in yourself and have a strong faith in Him. InsyaAllah, everything will be just fine =)

Aja aja fighting!!

p/s 1: She's completed most of the milestones in life and I am still half way through...hahaha. This is what we called "self-pace progression" ^^. Whatever it is, He knows better...

p/s 2: Abah, don't get me wrong okay!!! I still believe in doing things on "once at a time" basis...hehehe.

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Hari ini bermula indah sampai la satu detik bilamana hati ini seperti dihiris-hiris pisau tajam dengan hanya satu persoalan yang diutarakan seseorang "dia". Persoalannya cukup mudah...jujur dari hati. Tapi persoalan yang satu itu telah cukup untuk membuatkan hati ini menangis. Ahh, mungkin saya yang terlalu sensitif barangkali.

Kadangkala, tanpa kita sedari, kita sudah salah perkiraan. Kita merasakan kita telah melakukan banyak perkara dengan rela hati, kononnya tanpa mengharapkan perhargaan apatah lagi balasan. Kita merasakan segala-galanya telah sempurna. Kita merasakan kita tak pernah berkira dalam melakukan perkara-perkara yang sepatutnya dilakukan bersama dengan niat mahu memudahkan dan tak mahu menyusahkan. Selama ini, kita ikhlas melakukan semua itu. Namun, ada segelintir pihak yang merasakan bahawa kita tak pantas melakukan semua itu seorang diri...mereka juga mahu turut serta. Selama ini memang mereka tak pernah berniat mengabaikan semua itu, cuma kita yang terkadang bertindak lebih pantas dari mereka. Jadi, mereka seolah-olah berada pihak "tak peduli" padahal mereka sama sekali bukan manusia golongan itu.

Sebagai langkah permulaan, saya pun mula membahagikan tugas. Mungkin nampak agak "bossy" tapi saya sendiri agak dilema untuk melakukannya sewaktu pertama kali. "Kita buat lebih pun orang tak selesa, kita bahagi-bahagikan pun orang tak suka". Ntahla, saya memang amat sedih dengan keadaan ni. Selama ini, saya tak pernah bangkitkan isu "keadilan" apatah lagi merasa tidak puas hati dengan mana-mana pihak. Bagi saya, selagi saya mampu melakukannya, saya takkan minta bantuan orang lain apatah lagi memberikan arahan. Memang dari dulu mak dah berpesan, "Jangan berkira dalam apa-apa urusan. Bilamana kita sudah penat dan bosan, berdoalah pada Allah minta kekuatan untuk kita meneruskan segala yang kita selalu lakukan agar semuanya menjadi ibadah sebagai bekalan hari kemudian".

Tapi, hari ini, saya tewas juga. Saya terkesima bilamana apa yang saya lakukan dipertikaikan orang. Mungkin saya merasakan semuanya sudah sempurna, tapi saya lupa bahawa kesempurnaan takkan pernah dicapai semudah itu atau yang tepat lagi, kesempurnaan takkan pernah boleh dicapai oleh kita...manusia yang dhaif ini. Salahkah saya berbuat begitu selama ini? Pentingkan dirikah saya? Ahh...terlalu banyak persoalan yang bermain di fikiran saya. Niat di hati ingin membawa diri tapi itu jauh sekali dari sikap peribadi. Justeru, apa yang berlaku hari ini, saya anggap hanyalah satu "pengajaran" untuk saya memperbaiki diri. Tanpa peristiwa hari ini, takkan ada sentuhan kesedaran untuk hamba Allah yang hina ini.

Salam~

nota untuk "dia": ...walaupun pada mulanya saya geram dengan kamu dan saya hampir mengungkit semua perkara2 yang saya tak patut ungkit sebab pada asalnya saya memang tak kisah pun...(read: jin mona sudah hampir berjaya mencucuk saya untuk bertindak bodoh)...tapi alhamdulillah, Allah masih sayangkan saya. Saya mampu mengawal perasaan lantas tak berkongsi cerita ini dengan orang lain melainkan di blog ini. Lagipun, the details are secret kan...hehe. Btw, saya ingin berterima kasih pada kamu sebab kamu juga telah menyedarkan saya tentang sesuatu...thanks kamu =)

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Tak salah inginkan pembaharuan...memang manusia mudah bosan
Tak salah inginkan keadilan...memang manusia bencikan penyelewengan
Namun...
Janganlah dek kerana terlalu ingin menjatuhkan sesuatu pihak, kita tak menyedari yang kita sebenarnya sedang menaikkan pihak yang tak sepatutnya...pihak yang dalam diam akan sedikit demi sedikit menafikan hak-hak kita kelak...
Hmm...sedarlah wahai bangsaku...mari kita bersatu...
Tak guna kita berseteru sesama saudara seaqidahmu kerna pihak yang satu itu hanya menunggu waktu =)

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Janganlah kamu menjadikan orang-orang yang di luar kalanganmu (seagama) sebagai teman kepercayaanmu, kerana mereka tidak henti-hentinya akan menyusahkan kamu. Mereka mengharapkan kehancuranmu. Sesungguhnya telah nyata kebencian dari mulut mereka, dan apa yang tersembunyi di hati mereka lebih jahat. Sesungguhnya telah kami terangkan kepadamu ayat-ayat kami, jika kamu mengerti" (3:118)

Salam~


p/s: Never interested in politics neither favors any parties. Just concern about our future. Hoping for a leader who would based everything on ISLAMIC perspectives for with that, everything will be fine...insyaAllah

Assalamualaikum W.B.T.

Emm...don't know how to start but just let me go straight to the point okay.
Actually, I was wondering if there are people whom I don't know do read this blog.
I would be happy if those people (maybe one, maybe no one at all ^^) would leave his / her footsteps here for maybe we could be friends...blogging friends.
You could at least say "Hi" @ my chatterbox and give your blog url so I could someday visit yours too since I fancy blog-hopping damn much =)

p/s 1: I found that many people visits this blog, searching information about Kang Abik's novel. But so sorry that I have not much info about that. Book review is so not my 'thing'...hehe
p/s 2: If only I have a blogger friend from Japan ^^

Salam~

Tetiba teringat, seorang guru pernah berkata, "it's better to remain silent if we know nothing about something rather than saying many things about something but means nothing at all".

Dan memang telah dinyatakan dalam hadith juga..."berkatalah yang baik atau diam".

hmmm....self-reflection to make....

p/s: mungkin kene apply dah "Reflective Practice" yang Rod Lane ajar masa lecture EDUC 390 tadi =)

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Some people may wonder what is so interesting about blogging or blog-hopping. And I have my own answer about that.

First of all, I really love reading. But, I have my own preferred genre. I love to read stories related to real-life situation rather than those rated as 'action', 'sci-fi', thriller' or 'mystery' kind of thing. I fond of reading 'light' material that doesn't require such a huge proportion of my mental resources. Stories like personal experience; be it happiness, loneliness, hardship and romance, are typically my 'genre'. And now, I don't need to read or buy any storybooks at all as all these kind of stories are readily available online - they are in the blogs!!! I can choose any blog to read regardless the fact that I knew the person who authored it or not, and as a bonus, all the stories are not created for they all happened for real. This means, they are far more realistic than idealistic stories typically published on paper.

Every experience is unique. We'll never able to experience every single things in this life for it's impossible to even list them all in a first place. And it is through this 'sharing' process that we could learn something as knowledge is not only gained through formal schooling. Bear in mind that it is not necessary to 'feel' something before we could 'learn' something from it. Other's experinces could at least prepare us to deal with things that may occur in the future.

And one more thing for sure, other's experiences also inspire me to be a better person. They've proved that they can do it so why shouldn't I?.....for at least try.....not for me to be someone else.....but for me to be a better ME.....

Salam~

vs

Just finished watching AAC - movie version @ you tube.
So far ok. Not that bad though there are some contradict scenes here and there. What more to expect when something is to be commercialized ^^. But still I preffered the novel version as it is more detailed and more 'ummph'. For those who haven't read the novel, the movie is a good start for you to discover more about Kang Abik's genre...hehe.

*satu*

terkadang kita terlalu berkira tentang sesuatu yang hakikatnya bukan milik mutlak kita
dan Dia tak pernah lengah untuk mengingatkan kita bahawa kita tak pantas untuk punya 'pemikiran sebegitu'
lalu Dia punya 'cara istimewa' untuk menyedarkan kita tentang kekhilafan itu supaya kita selalu ingat dan jangan pernah lupa bahawa
"segalanya hanya milik Dia"

senyum^^bersyukur Dia masih sayang kita^^

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*dua*

hidup terasa indah dan bahagia andai tiap detik di manfaatkan dengan baik sekali
barakah mungkin!!!

^^
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*tiga*

tidak mudah untuk menjangkakan apa yang bakal terjadi dalam hidup kita
mungkin sebenarnya, kita memang tak selayaknya berbuat begitu
jadi, "live life as it is"
kerana selagi kita meyakini "al-qadr...khairihi wa syarrihi"
pasti ada jalan untuk terus hidup gembira dalam rahmat-Nya

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Salam~

finished reading Pudarnya Pesona Cleopatra & Mahkota Cinta.
both authored by Kang Abik.
happy =)

p/s: what does it means if we dreamt about the same thing more than once?
>confused<