first phase: I barely made it through. alhamdulillah.

second phase: struggling...

third phase: Allahu a'lam

I thought it's easy. Then only  I realized many things are just very idealistic on the surface.

But I keep believing, 

"Mesti boleh buat, cuma kena kuat dan lebih kuat".

"Jangan dikira berapa banyak air mata yang tumpah...sebab itu bukan ertinya kalah".

"Nak menang memang tak mudah, yang penting jangan mengalah".

Along the way, I only learnt the meaning of "syukur".

I don't know how's life gonna be should I am not a Muslim.

The thought of it always makes me feel so honoured. and again I cried :')

Thank you Allah. Thank you Allah. Thank you Allah. 

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal~

And again, it's a plain lie if I said I don't feel anything about it.

takut.risau.sedih.keliru.kecikhati.feelinsignificant - are parts and parcel of life this one year.

But again, I keep believing,

"I am doing this for HIM. So, I should not feel worried of anything. 

HE's the one, choosing me to lead this path. 

So, I believe that HE'll protect me, HE'll guide me 

and HE'll make me happy...even if it's not here...later in jannah...in sya Allah."

So, to the 90d2dWnM, Fighting!! 

You can do it babeh!!

Allah kan ada (like what I always told chacha)

was bloghopping when I read an entry about science stream students vs art stream students...

and I wonder which category should I group myself in (o_0)

can I consider myself a bi- then...(erkkk)

moral of the story:

rasa kesian kat anak murid bila ajar grammar ala2 ajar maths...

paling kesian bila approach ni dapat plak kat budak2 yang takbleyblah in maths (oh, saya faham keadaan ini...)

tapi nak buat camne, I am a bi-....so, aku guna approach ikut suka la...

segala kesulitan amat dikesali~

erk, dulu kalau pandai lebih sikit, maybe dah jadi chekgu maths...maybe la kot...haha~

 Assalamualaikum W.B.T

"No man is an Island, entire of it self; every man is a piece of the Continent, a part of the main."

@ work time

@ holiday_ jimba jimbi time

@ crazy time

@ all other times

a great company would be with us through thick and thin...

but humans ain't perfect that sometimes they tend to forget things...they can't commit all the time...

so, as long as God sent someone to us...

to be with us...

when we are happy, 

when we are sad,

when we are excited,

when we are worried,

be it the same person or different...

that's great enough...

thanks to Allah for that :)))

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

I've been thinking about so many things these days...and that's when I decided to prioritize my priority...
I can't afford to make so many steps at once but I could definitely take one at least...yeah...one at a time...that's my plan...insyaAllah...

At times, I didn't realize that I've already grown up...
this is to say that I am no longer the same like before...
Time has passed and what lies in front of me is different now...and will continuously be different...
So, I have to be different too...my attitude, my way of thinking, my actions, my priority....everything... basically everything...
...or else I'll be stucked...

Hopefully, I'm making the right move...insyaAllah...
May Allah bless the path that I've chosen...or should I say, may the path that I've chosen is the result of the intuition sent by Allah~

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Before anything, let us consider these two sayings:

"Absence makes the heart grows fonder"

"Out of sight, out of mind"

Which one do you think is truer than the other?

Actually, I was thinking about the truth in both sayings since before.

At times, yes, absence could make our heart grows fonder...

But then, the word 'fonder' itself has different connotation to different people...

Relating myself to the context here, I would say that somehow, absence is a blessing...

Sometimes, we need to be apart from our loved ones for a while so that we have time to reflect and rationalize things...

Yes, to love is some kind of a gift from God but whether we realize it or not, we could not nurture the feelings to just anybody...or lemme put it this way...we could nurture the feelings but we should put limitations to it...depending on the individuals we are dealing with.

In my case, I feel that the separation period give me a good platform to detach myself from the people whom I have unconsciously treated the way that I shouldn't in a first place. (read: I give MORE)

Not to say that when they are out of sight, they will be out of mind but at least I could control my feelings and perhaps do a good restart later...this time in a slower pace..maybe..heh..

But one thing for sure, once we go through "separation" period, the feelings wont be the same again. It's either become "more" or "less". It's not like clicking a pause button when you play a song that it will continue where it stops when you resume it.heh~

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

I know..I know..The topic sounds so "uhhh". But, that's what I've been thinking or should I say "reflecting" all this while. Maybe because I am a teacher. So, I've been observing people of different age levels. That's when I started thinking of all those things related to parenting.

Previously, when I was still "young" and "not-so-matured" (heh ;P), I used to think that getting married and having children is JUST another milestone in life. BUT, I seriously forgot the fact that MARRIAGE and CHILDREN are not as simple as how the words are spelt. Both comes with responsibility...read: RESPONSIBILITY (note the capital letters...heh). 

I don't know what people generally have in mind when they decide to get married but for me, marriage is something that we "do" with preparation. Preparation here not only means  good financial support but also physical and mental readiness. I am a person who strongly believes that one should equip themselves with knowledge before he/she gets married. Yes, LOVE is the core thing in a relationship but I believe it's the KNOWLEDGE and UNDERSTANDING of why we do things that will constantly remind us of the RESPONSIBILITY that we should assume to lead the marriage life well. Again, I realized that this is just a humble opinion from someone with no experience but at least, that's what I gained through observation.

Talking about KNOWLEDGE, it's again something that is not necessarily gained from formal process like attending courses. It could be acquired informally like through vicarious experience for example. We could read from various sources, we could observe it from other people or we could also ask around. We see and learn lots of things everyday. So, when the time comes for us to apply things, it's when we decide or choose what's the best way of doing things.

Somehow or rather, when I see my students and my nephews, I wonder how it's like for parents to raise  the children. Tell me, who wouldn't want a good, obedient kid that could be proud of all the time? But again, tell me, is there a specific formula for that? Oh, how I wish I knew that so I could tell everyone about it...heh~

As I walk further in my journey of life, I started to realize that life isn't getting any simpler but tougher.  And that makes me feel so thankful to Allah for having such parents. I started to appreciate them more than I did before. 

So, whatever difficulties we faced in any phase of life, I see that all as tests from Allah to see how well we could cope with challenges in life. InsyaAllah, I believe if we consistently seek guidance from HIM, in all matters, things would be a lot more easier and hopefully we would never go astray. Aminn. 

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

I just don’t understand why am I becoming too engrossed in writing recently…
Was it the influence of The Vampire Diaries…I don’t know…haha
But, if I could recall it clearly, actually I’ve started writing 8 years ago…that time I was in a boarding school…
It’s the first time I’ve been ‘kept’ in a place where I’ve got to be very careful as to whom I could ‘share’ stories…

There are some stories that you could just tell anybody and there are certain things that you have got to be picky as to whom you could reveal things and to what extent your revelation should be..
And that act could trap you as well because you can’t afford to know everybody inside out…so, you could have made a wrong decision…

Solution: I wrote things…things that I angry about, I am not satisfied with…anything….
But, I realized one disadvantage of keeping a diary…what if people happen to ‘find out’ and read things… couldn’t it be a disaster?
So, every time when I finished ‘expressing’ my what-so-ever-feelings, I would tear that piece of paper and get rid of it…
At least, I feel better because I have let things out of my mind, my inner soul…so, it’s less burdensome I guess…

I stopped writing for quite some time…
And I started again…maybe a bit more serious when I was in Sydney back in 2007…3 years ago I guess…
Yeah, people call me ‘jiwang’ or whatever the term is...but, do I care?
I just need a channel to put down my thoughts, my feelings and anything I feel like sharing…
OMG, I couldn’t keep everything to myself…because my mind and my heart have limited capacity…
So, there are things that I keep inside and there are some that I need to let go to at least provide some space for the upcoming ‘things’…
There, one way is to keep a journal…at least you can keep track of it…some kind of an archives I should say..haha
That’s the reason why I blog…

Previously, I used to make it public…
That’s why I never write things bluntly…
I consider my audience…I’ve to be or pretend to be someone whose EQ is of ‘moderate’ level…
But now, after what happened, I don’t think I could make it public anymore…
I am so hurt that it’s hard for me to trust people anymore…at least for now…
I have started becoming skeptical…over so many things…
I know exactly that this isn’t good…but I guess it’s just a reaction towards what happened…
I really wish I could get over it soon…I hope so

As much as I hate to remember things, I just couldn’t forget it…at least that easily…
Whatever I did or of think of, I don’t know but my brilliant mind would always make this kind of connection to continuously reactivate my schemata of it…
And every time the thought came across my mind, I would feel hurt…
I don’t know how long would it take for me to be fully recovered but I really wish Allah will help me get through this…
Perhaps, my soul is empty right now that Allah gave me this test…
Yeah..maybe…
At least that’s what I choose to think…

I think I just want to start fresh…anew…
Maybe, I am ignoring things… but, that’s what I choose to do…
I hope there’ll be no regret…
Yeah, maybe I am a coward…because I didn’t try…
But can I just choose not to try…
I hope no one would pressure me…
Because I just do not like doing things that is not me…
I hope this is the best…
Allah, please guide me…

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

The reason she is who she is today is merely because she is overly protective of her own feelings…
Of all the feelings, the one that she fears the most is the feeling of being rejected and hurt…

On the surface, she may look tough and rough…
Maybe, that’s what she always portrays or should she say “trying” to portray…
When in real fact, she is not…she never was…
Indeed, she is so fragile…to the extent that one could never imagine it could be of a person by “THE” name…
I guess, everything that people see on the first side is merely a shield to cover up who she is actually…
Maybe…maybe…I don’t know…
Because she has got this remark about her saying that “what you see is not what you get”…
That somehow indicates that she is not who she truly is if people were to judge her only from the first meeting…at least that’s what her friend said…and she admits there’s truth in it…somehow…

She always thinks that she is not easy…she is complicated…
Basically, she is not trying to be dramatic here by using such a cliché word…but, she really thinks that’s the word to describe her…especially when it comes to her feelings and how strong of an influence it has on her actions…

Not many people can understand her…and in fact, she bets if there’s any…
And she doesn’t expect anyone to be one also…because she feels that’s just being too demanding…
I don’t know…
But even if no one could understand her…one thing she really wishes she could get from someone close to her or her life partner (insyaAllah) is the support or the respect for whatever decision that she made or wants to make…
Even though her decision will appear so illogical and nonsense to others, she wishes she has this “tactful” angel, telling her how she could possibly consider other options rather than imposing hers…
She knows, this again shows how selfish she is but that’s how ‘this person’ works…
She is egocentric ok…She hate listening people telling her what to do especially when she knew exactly what to do…the more she’s being told, the more she’ll show her reluctance to follow…That’s her if people want to know…

So, saying that you love her and at the same time not at least trying to understand her or showing respect for her decision…is actually an act of hurting her feelings…
She knows exactly things are not easy on the other side because this is not the first time she faced such situation…
So, she thinks open up is not the best way to at least soothe her for now…

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Mengingati saat itu memang buat aku amat sakit sekarang...
Sakit yang tak nampak....tapi cukup untuk buat aku terseksa...
Sebenarnya, bukan salah sesiapa pun..tapi aku sendiri...
Ini jalan yang aku pilih... walau sebenarnya hati x merelai...
Kenapa ya, aku kalah dengan hawa nafsu...lemahnya aku...

Ya Allah, tolonglah aku... pandulah aku ke jalan-Mu...
yang telah lama aku 'tinggalkan'...
aku tak mampu terus begini...
hatiku makin layu...

Namun, aku masih bersyukur...
kerna Kau masih mahu mengetuk pintu hatiku...
Terima kasih Tuhan :)

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

It's been a while since the last time I updated this blog. It's not that I don't want to but I just don't have the chance to do so. But today, despite the work that I should be doing and completing, I squeeze some time to write something here. I think I have enough of facebooking for now because sometimes, there's something that you should not make it public... at least too public to anyone you know to read... Yeah, it's my bad actually to treat fb the same way as I treat my blog... Maybe I should be more careful after this... I guess, that just happened out of desperation...

It's been 3 months now... and working life is tremendously different from student's life... While yes, I have started earning money now... but at the same time, I need to sacrifice a few things in my life... This 3 months has been very challenging for me... physically and mentally.The only thing that makes me happy at the moment is being with the students... I think that's merely because I see them as my brothers and sisters. Actually, I learn a lot from them...especially on how to be a good sister...something that I have yet to become after 17 years...

I actually want to write more and more... I want to express everything that I feel...everything that I reflect on... everything... so that I could feel better... But, maybe some other time...

To tell the truth, being able to write this piece of entry is enough to give me a sense of relief... Fyi, it's not 'teaching' that keeps me going...for I think I'm not a good teacher... But it's the 'feeling' that I have when I talk to the students...try to understand them...care for them... that's priceless... In this sense, I think I now understand why God leads me to this path...alhamdulillah :)

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Hello everybody! I hope all of us are doing fine no matter where we are right now. I am currently in Terengganu, a state where I found many interesting stories. Actually, I don’t know whether the interesting part come from the place itself, or it’s me who make everything looks interesting in my eyes =) This may be so perhaps because this is the first time I’ve been away from my place, my comfort zone. Last two years, when I was overseas, the feeling was a bit different because at that time I knew already and I sort of have set my mind to expect “the difference” between my country and the foreign land. But this time, when I first stepped my foot on the land some called it as “Darul Runtuh” (no offense please anyone…some Terengganu people actually mentioned that to me), I do not know what to expect. So any experiences that I had here feel so fresh, new and interesting so to say because I never had it anywhere else before.

Somehow, to a certain extent, I feel really greatful to be here. Praise be to Allah for arranging such kind of ‘fate’ for me. Though at times, I still have this feeling of “disbelief” that I am actually here and will spend few years of my life here, I am indeed happy with it. To tell you the truth, I actually wonder how can I feel so positive towards the fact that I need to be far away from my loved ones…ever since I received the placement letter. Even now, I wonder why am I willing to stay here for five-days-holidays when I am capable of going back to my hometown. Never in my life before that I would choose not to go back home whenever I am on holidays (except when I was overseas). But, that’s what happening now. I guess this is all God’s job. When I reflect back of what’s happening, I suddenly remember that I once prayed that if I am not getting a nearby place to start my career, I really wish that wherever I will be, I hope that Allah will give me these two things: safety and peace. Alhamdulillah, Allah gives me both. So far, I would say that the place I am currently at is considered as safe. And I didn’t expect the “peace” part would come like this. This feeling is so “powerful” that I didn’t expect it to have a total control of my life right now. I just realized that any “awkwardness” or whatever “changes” in my behavior and attitudes are the results of the “peace and tranquility” that God has sent to me to soothe my heart. MasyaAllah, what a blessing! Thank you Allah!

Now, what can I say is just that I am coping quite well with my new life in the new surroundings. I like my workplace, my colleagues, my housemates, my students, and Terengganu in general. I guess God is kind enough to let me have this kind of experience so that I could broaden my view and perception of life, so I could clear any prejudices that I had before towards certain people and places, so I could in the end be a very “open-minded” individual and most importantly not an egocentric one. That’s what I see for now and I am very looking forward to discover the many-more-interesting-facts that I believe God has prepared for me. I know this journey won’t be as easy as I want it to be, but I guess as long as Allah is there for me, I think life is just nothing without any challenges. For me, it’s from those obstacles that we learnt something about life and thus made the journey such a meaningful one especially for the benefits of the life in the hereafter.


To my family, my mom especially, you don't have to worry about me. Alhamdulillah, I am OK here. Although we are far by physical distance, yet it feels so near at heart. Just pray for me because it's the prayers that will safeguard me from anything. InsyaAllah, He will look after me on your behalf :) To my beloved friends, enjoy your stay wherever you are and insyaAllah, we will somehow rock the world in our very own way. All the best ya :)

Salam~

p/s: Now, I am 85% sure that I am “ok” with the fact that I am actually a “teacher”. I’ll definitely mark the day when I am 100% confident to say that I DESERVED TO BE A TEACHER =)

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

And now I discover another thing that irritates me. I hate it to the max when I have to shoulder another person's responsibility when the person is actually capable of handling it.

For me, each and everyone of us has our own set of responsibilities. When we are assigned with specific role or choose to do it, we have to be ready to carry any responsibilities that come along with it. I knew, there will be times when we would be incapable to handle all the responsibilities that we have on the list. So, that's the time when we ask for help. However, even when someone helps you to do your duty, you should never forget the fact that "it's still my duty and the person is just helping". So, be considerate. Don't let your duty be a burden to a person who is just trying to help you.

I don't know but I suddenly think that being a responsible individual is a very important quality of a good person. If we could be responsible to our own self, to our parents, our siblings, our families, our friends, our colleagues, our clients, our surroundings and most importantly our Creator, life wouldn't be so difficult Iguess. But I have to admit that the RESPONSIBILITIES I am taking about is in capital letters. So, mind you that performing it is not as easy as pronouncing it. But for a start, let us just mind our own business. I'll take care of my R, and you take care of yours...heh~

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Day after day, it seemed clearer to me that I am not that patient after all...sigh~ As much as I hate to admit it, I can't runaway from the fact that I am such a bad-temper person. Call me hypocrite or whatever you wish to call it, but this personality of mine is getting worse each day. I am starting to have a weak control over my anger especially when I deal with kids. Too bad too bad :( I know if "ghadhab" is one of the many "sifat2 mazmumah" but sad enough to say, I do possess such characteristic.

I remembered I read somewhere about "akhlak" where it's said that, "akhlak tak tumbuh seperti lalang...ia perlu disemai." So, I really hope I do have enough fertilizer or whatever it takes to fertilize it :)

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

People LIKE to compare themselves with others. That's typical fact for human beings in general. But there's also another typical fact about human. They HATE being compared. Irony aite!!

I have been thinking about this since long time ago. I think I've started to realize how annoyed I am to be compared to someone or something since I was 12. At that time, my mother compared me with my brother in relation to our academic performance. She was talking about how relaxed he was in his study and yet he scored. I am so pissed off at that moment because for me, everyone is different. We have our own style and in fact, he is a boy and I am not. He is brilliant and I am just so so. Since that moment, everytime my mother compares to anyone or anything, I'll just switch off. This is the time when the saying, "ignorance is a bliss" really applies to me and my situation. Come on, she's my mother and I don't want to be a disrespectful daughter. So, I better ignore whatever she said or I'll end up giving a rude response to her. You know, I just hate listening to such thing. It burns my ears ;P

But I guess, this is common among parents - comparing between children. For them, it's a kind of motivation. The same goes with teachers. They have more or less similar view about this. I don't know how true it is, but I believe almost everyone if not all, hate being compared to others, especially their siblings or friends/colleagues etc.

For me, such thing will never be a motivation source but a murderer to my self-belief. I am the type of person who wants to succeed in whatever I am doing based on my own pace, my own capacity and my own way. I do observe people and I did learnt from them but I just hate being told to do so. Why? Because I know what I am doing. I just couldn't be the person they told me to be. There's no two persons who are identical. So, let me be myself and please don't ask me to be another version of an already existed individual. I just can't be and even if I could, I would never want to. I just don't prefer copycats.heh~

So, as a reminder for you and for me especially as future teacher and parent, please please please avoid comparing your students and children. There's so many ways to motivate people and please make this the last method on earth to use :)

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Tetiba saya terfikir, apakah karekter2 yang boleh menyebabkan seseorang disifatkan sebagai keanak-anakan atau childish.

Dan antara jawapan2 yang boleh saya fikirkan sekarang ialah:

tidak serius dalam kerja.
mudah ber'emosi' i.e. marah, merajuk dsb
bercakap tanpa berfikir terlebih dahulu
perlu di'ingatkan' berkali2 untuk buat sesuatu
dsb.

Pada pendapat saya, tak salah bersikap childish...asalkan sesuai masanya. Kalau menjadi 'dewasa' setiap masa pun mungkin tak menarik kehidupan ini. Come on, life needs colours. Tapi ada masa dan ketikanya, jika tak kena gaya, sikap begini boleh memakan diri. It's annoying!!! Jadi, apa saja yang kita nak buat pun, haruslah mengikut kesesuaian masa, tempat dan orang sekeliling.

Bila namanya pun childish, maka memang itulah sikap kanak2. Itu nature mereka. Jadi, sebagai orang dewasa, jika hendak mengendalikan kanak2, mahu atau tidak, perlu ada sedikit elemen childish dalam diri. Jika tidak, kita akan menghadapi kesulitan untuk menguruskan mereka. Kalaupun tidak punya sikap begitu, paling tidak, kita harus memahami sebaiknya fitrah mereka yang memang suka bermain setiap masa. Apa jua yang mereka lakukan, mereka asyik fikir untuk bermain, tak kiralah waktu makan, mandi, berjalan, apa sajalah. Jika kita tidak memahami sikap mereka yang memang tak pernah serius walau ketika melakukan perkara yang serius, sudah tentu kita akan mudah marah atau berang. Sudahnya, kanak2 tadi memang asyik kena marah dek kerana sikap mereka yang bermain tak kena tempat pada pandangan kita. Tapi yang sebenarnya, kitalah yang kurang bijak menangani situasi itu kerana pada pandangan mereka, life is about playing...be it a good play or a fool one.

Dan saya sebenarnya sekarang dalam proses memahami fitrah kanak2 kerana bagi orang yang kurang sifat childish dalam diri, this situation is not easy for me. Tapi, saya akan terus berusaha kerana saya percaya, orang dewasa harus bertindak mengikut rasional bukan emosi. Jadi, sebagai usaha untuk menjadi seorang ibu saudara yang baik dan mungkin seorang ibu suatu hari nanti juga untuk menjadi seorang dewasa yang matang pemikirannya, saya harus istiqamah meneruskan pendidikan ini. heh~

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

I don't know why everytime I wrote something about love as my fb status, people will start asking whether I am currently in love or in a relationship with someone and things like that. And my reaction would be, of course I am in love...every day and will always be...insyaAllah. Because for me, being in love does not necessarily require a person to be in a relationship with someone or dating anyone for I am currently not in that situation..heh~

Love for me connotes bigger intrepretation than love to your partner, parents, family, friends and whoever we called human. Don't ever think you are the greatest lover or could be one someday because the reality is, you can never be one. You know why, because human's love can never be separated with the word "expectation". When you love someone, you will expect someone to love you back. When you give the person something as the symbol of your love, you will expect the person do to somewhat similar in return. No matter how good or angelic you are, you must have this kind of feeling...even it weighs an atom. Even if you don't have any expectation, you will have hope...I believe :)

If you ever wonder who is the greatest lover then, the answer would be Allah, the Almighty. Why? Because when He loves he has no expectatation. His Ar-Rahman and Ar-Raheem have proven that He will give His nikmat to everyone regardless they're believers / not. But of course, there will be some differences in that sense. But my focus is more towards His power to love without hoping to be loved back. Don't u just think that is the purest love ever. I don't know but this is what I feel...

Actually, I am just trying to relate my feeling to this one song by Siti Nurhaliza. It is very unusual for me to actually make an effort to look up for the lyrics except when I feel like singing the song. But this time, the lyrics interest me. This song is more than what I assumed it to be typically be. So, let's explore the lyrics and see if you could feel the same like I did :)

Mereka meragui
Wujudnya cinta yang sejati
Tidak hati ini

Semenjak dari mula
Ku yakin ada cinta
Cintalah yang memungkinkan segala

Ku rela..
Biar betapapun perit tertusuk duri
Jalan berliku tiada bertepi

Ku percaya..
Tidak sia-sia aku diuji
Demi cinta..
Tersembunyi hikmahnya pasti

Pandang-pandang alam
ini
Sambil pandang difikiri
Mana bumbung langit tinggi
Mana lantai bumi

Tiap satu yang terjadi
Tidak mungkin tersendiri
Cuba cari jawapannya andai meragui

Ku rela
Biar betapa pun perit tertusuk duri
Jalan berliku tiada bertepi

Ku percaya
Tidak sia-sia aku duji
Ada hikmahnya pasti

Sejak mula ku percaya ada cinta

Cinta itu memungkinkan segalanya

Cinta suci
Dan abadi….

Title: Ku Percaya Ada Cinta

Artist: Siti Nurhaliza

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Sometimes, I just feel that they are afraid of their own shadow. They did things that I could not see its rationality. I've been there and I've done that. I am not being biased or what but I just don't think they have influenced my view and perception towards anything. So, why make that as an issue to counter your opponent.

Hey, come on! Intelligent people would not be easily influenced by stupid ideology (if there's any) because they could think for themselves. Even if they are being persuaded to do something, the choice is still theirs. So, why bother if they are making it for better. Hey boy, go and get a real issue so that your are not making yourself a real dumb.heh

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Setiap perkara yang berlaku dalam hidup ini pasti memiliki sebab dan maksud yang tertentu...
Dari sekecil2 perkara hinggalah sebesar2 musibah, semuanya pasti punya sebab mengapa ia berlaku...
Dan hari ini, saya terdetik untuk berbicara soal pertemuan sesama manusia...

Dalam dunia ini, kita bertemu dengan ramai manusia...
Hubungan dengan manusia pula boleh dikategorikan dalam beberapa kriteria...

Sebahagiannya ada pertalian darah dengan kita - ibu, ayah, adik-beradik, saudara-mara...
Sebahagian yang lain tidak - kawan2, guru2, masyarakat sekeliling...

Dan antara mereka, ada yang rapat dengan kita... dan ada pula yang sekadar menjadi watak2 yang menghiasi kehidupan kita...

Namun, samada kita sedari atau tidak, setiap makhluk Allah yang kita temui setiap hari, semuanya mempunyai peranan dalam hidup kita...walaupun kita pernah menganggap mereka hanyalah watak2 pipih dalam pentas lakonan kehidupan kita...

Kenapa begitu? Kerana pertemuan yang berlaku (tak kiralah di alam nyata atau alam maya) bukanlah sekadar 'kebetulan' tapi hakikatnya adalah 'rencana' Allah S.W.T. Bukankah Allah mengetahui setiap sesuatu hatta gugurnya sehelai daun sekalipun...

"Dan kunci2 semua yang ghaib ada pada-Nya; tidak ada yang mengetahui selain Dia. Dia mengetahui apa yang ada di darat dan di laut. Tidak ada sehelai daun pun yang gugur yang tidak diketahui-Nya. Tidak ada sebutir biji pun dalam kegelapan bumi dan tidak pula sesuatu yang basah atau yang kering, yang tidak tertulis dalam kitab yang nyata (Lauh Mahfuz)" (6:59)

Bagi saya sendiri, saya selalu merasa bahawa Allah menemukan saya dengan seseorang untuk saya 'belajar' sesuatu dari mereka...
Tak kiralah siapa mereka, baik muda atau tua, rapat atau jauh, berpangkat tinggi atau rendah...pada akhirnya, saya pasti 'belajar' sesuatu daripada mereka atau pertemuan itu sendiri...

Jadi sepatutnya, tiada istilah "aku menyesal jumpa kau"... kerana walau apa jua yang berlaku, kita tidak akan tahu 'rahsia' di sebalik pertemuan itu andai kita tidak bertemu individu tersebut in a very first place. Maka, hargailah pertemuan itu kerana itulah puncanya kita 'pelajari' sesuatu tentang diri dia, diri kita jua tentang kehidupan...

Dikesempatan ini, saya ingin mengucapkan terima kasih kepada semua individu yang telah saya temui sama ada di alam nyata atau di alam maya...kerana anda semualah yang telah 'mengajar' saya tentang erti kehidupan, membantu saya membentuk identiti sendiri, dan menjadi agen kepada perubahan diri saya dari pelbagai aspek seperti cara berfikir, attitude, gaya hidup dan banyak lagi...

Kepada individu2 yang tidak terlibat secara langsung dalam hidup saya, ketahuilah bahawa anda semua sebenarnya adalah penyumbang terbesar dalam usaha saya 'menilai' kehidupan kerana andalah sumber 'pemerhatian' saya...

Namun, setinggi2 kesyukuran saya panjatkan kepada Allah kerana Dialah yang menetapkan semua ini...

Ketahuilah Ya Allah bahawa aku begitu mensyukuri nikmat ditemukan dengan semua individu sepanjang hayat ini kerana aku tahu itulah yang terbaik untuk diriku =)

One thing for sure, God is Great!!

Salam~