Alhamdulillah.
2013 is “The Year” for me.
It’s the year in which so many important things happened to me.
Too many to be listed that I choose to write only a few here.
1st: 2nd June 2013 – the day when I became Mrs.
Amir.
2nd: 29th August 2013 – the day when I became a
postgrad student in UKM.
3rd: 15th September 2013 – the day when I
received Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang 2012 award.
Alhamdulilllah thumma Alhamdulillah thumma Alhamdulillah.
No words could describe my feelings at the moment.
I could only think of Allah, thinking about all these.
There are all gifts from HIM, at the same time trials as well.
Being a wife is a totally new experience.
Getting married doesn’t mean “life is a bed of roses” now.
Yes, I am in love. But I rather choose “bangun cinta” than “jatuh cinta”.
And to do that, there’s so many things I have learnt, am learning, and
should learn and unlearn as well.
I see this as a “journey” rather than an “achievement” (as some may put
it).
“Living with a man” shapes a “new” me.
We are different in many ways yet similar in some ways. That’s the
beauty of it.
Though “to change” and reach “equilibrium” is a bit challenging, I
think I am up for this challenge.
It is an interesting experience though and I must say:
“I love my other half. He
completes me.” (PDA alert!! hahaha)
I always thought I would be a postgrad student then only a wife.
But Allah has better plan.
The moment I am ready to pursue my postgrad studies, Allah send him to
me.
So, I postponed the study plan first, fulfilling my duty as a muslim by
getting married.
And about three months later, I registered as a postgrad student.
If being in long distance relationship is already an issue to me, adding
to the list now is being a part time student who commutes about 1000km on
weekends just to attend the class.
Sometimes, I think I made a crazy decision.
But, I always remind myself that what I am doing now is not only for my
benefit but also for the ummah insyaAllah.
And having such thoughts motivates me to stay with my decision so
far...Alhamdulillah.
Again, Allah blessed me with a supportive husband.
Though our different backgrounds (i.e. Engineering vs Education,
Private vs Government) sometimes causes arguments between us, the fact that he
loves knowledge and anything related to that solves many issues.
Having a “new man” (read: not Abah anymore) sending you to
class and fetching you home after class is really a good feeling to me...Alhamdulillah.
That’s the support I needed at least and he could provide that so far...Alhamdulillah.
At one point in my life, I thought of quitting the profession.
I even have the thought of becoming a home maker one day should career
hinders my ability to be a good wife cum mother one day.
Just as such thoughts keeps lingering in my mind, Allah blessed me with
Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang 2012.
I was left dumbfounded the moment the officer showed me the letter.
I was like, “Why me?”, “What have I done?”, “Did I ever do something
impressive?”
I myself have no answer for the selection if people were to ask about
my eligibility of receiving such recognition.
Then I realized that whatever happens could be the signs from Allah.
...that He wants me to be an excellent wife to my husband...
...that He wants me to be an excellent student who keeps learning...
...that He wants me to be an excellent educator who contributes to
nation building...
The thought of it always makes me cry.
I always think of becoming an ordinary person who leads an ordinary
life.
But Allah keeps giving me signs that I worth more than that.
I should not be ordinary. I should be extra ordinary!!
I should not be weak. I should be strong!!
And to be that, all I need is the positive vibes around me.
No matter how many times I fall, I should always get up.
I know He is watching me.
I know He will always help me.
I know He will grant me with the strength.
I know I can do it so long I believe He is there for me.
O Lord, thanks for the opportunities You give me to live my life.
May the life I lead in this world would make me a happy servant in the Hereafter....ameen.
