Assalamualaikum W.B.T

I know it's not an easy thing to do...

but I have to do it...slowly...gradually...

Though I am not sure if it's gonna be a permanent change...I do not know...at least at this point...

For some matters, especially when it involves feelings, do not take it very personally and seriously.... 

forget your loser-sensitive feeling... 

PLEASE LEARN TO DO THAT!!

Do not meddle into other people's business, esp. personal matters...although your intention is to care for them...they do not like it...

PLEASE LEARN TO DO THAT!!

Do not share every story of yours to others...you'll bore them..

PLEASE LEARN TO DO THAT!!

If you do something for someone, never expect anything in return...and never assume that they'll do the same thing for you if you happen to be in the same situation as them...remember, we are all different...

PLEASE LEARN TO DO THAT!!

Focus on your relationship with ALLAH, FAMILY and WORK...not to forget, keep a good relationship with the persons that surrounds you for you'll definitely depend on them someday..somehow..

PLEASE LEARN TO DO THAT!!

I do not know where this kind of resolutions will take me to...

It might sound professional in one way..and selfish in another way...

But, I hope this is the best for now...

But if it is not, I pray that Allah will show me the right way of doing things...

For I am tired...figuring it out by myself...

May Allah bless me...forever...iAllah~

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Do not ask me why...for I don't have the answer...

Maybe because I could not take it anymore...
Maybe because I am tired of pretending...
Maybe because I can no longer endure the pain...
Maybe...Maybe...
I do not know...really I do!

Maybe I have changed...
Maybe I have realized my mistakes...
Maybe I cannot be the person I thought I could be...
Maybe...Maybe...
I do not know...really I do!

But I did learn may things from this...
I learnt that I should never assume things...
I learnt that I should have avoided things if I knew from the beginning that I could not tolerate with it...or I should learn from the beginning how to tolerate with it...
I learnt that I should not think highly of myself...that people can actually live without me...that I am not that important...
I learnt that I should stop trying hard to please others when they do not actually need that...
and the most important thing is...
I learnt that ALLAH IS THE BEST for He will there for me anytime anywhere...
and He's The Only One who is able to help me...

and for that, I thank You Allah...for this test....
but, seriously..please give me whatever it takes to face this trial...
I beg You...please....

Salam~