Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Sometimes in our life, whether we realized it or not, the reality depicts not the truth. At times, we became confused as what's right and what's not especially when we clearly see that the wrong thing has been regarded as acceptable norm in the society. This is when our principle of life is challenged.

If people ever asked me about my principle in life, I don't think I could name one...what more to give them a list. But this doesn't mean that I don't have any principles. As I do things, I knew there are some guidelines that I follow. I admit that sometimes I am lenient...but mind you, there are things that are not tolerable especially when it involves religion.

I knew I should continue learning and internalizing all the Islamic teachings so that whatever comes my way, I could stand still and be firm with my principle. Whatever happens, I should never jeopardize my Deen...that's my aim...insyaAllah :)

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Nampaknya, rutin kehidupan saya benar-benar berubah bila saya pulang ke Malaysia. Banyak perkara yang saya lakukan dulu di Sydney, tak mampu saya teruskan di sini. Oh Tuhan, betapa saya merindukan saat-saat suka duka di sana.

Saya bukan tegar. Saya sedar banyak perkara tentang saya yang telah berubah. Ada yang saya rasakan ia perubahan positif, tapi banyak juga yang negatif. Dan saya tidak gembira dengan keadaan ini.

But I just realized one thing, "whenever I chose to go to one direction, I have indirectly abandoned the other". Though sometimes I felt unhappy with the consequences of my decision, I knew at the end of the day, I just could not get everything that I want.

For the "people" whom I have indirectly "ignored", I just want to say I am sorry. I knew I have hurt you guys in some ways. I knew it and I reliazed it. But, I am just not capable to handle everything. I want you to know that I never forget you nor despise you from my life. If you knew how bad I feel to do what I did and how lonely I am at times...when I suddenly found nobody is actually with me.

I knew it and I should be ready for it.

When I can't decide whether I want this or that, I knew at the end of the day, I shall be losing both of them...and thus left with nothing...

This is the way I lead my life and I shall be ready...ready for everything...

Salam~

p/s: Whether I like it or not, getting my family back means I have to let go my blogging world... This is not a karma rule...this is just MY RULE...hmm...

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Oh, adapting is just difficult for me at the moment. My body and my brain just could not tolerate with all the changes that lies in front of me...at least for now. To keep up with changes...indeed it's very stressful for me. As I mentioned before, I think TIME is what I really need now.

I hope that I won't consume too much time in the adatation process for I don't actually have much time to waste.

InsyaAllah, I'll try my best to handle the situation. This time, I can't be pessimist anymore or I'll end up be a dead meat...heh

Salam~

p/s: I missed blogging...very much...but I don't have the capacity to do so as much as I want at the moment. And that's make me sad...a bit ;(