Jika hari ini kita buat orang lain marah,

esok lusa orang lain akan buat kita/orang yang kita sayang pula marah.

Jika hari ini kita buat orang lain menangis,

esok lusa orang lain akan buat kita / orang yang kita sayang pula menangis.

Jika hari ini kita buat orang lain gembira, 

esok lusa orang lain akan buat kita / orang yang kita sayang pula gembira.

Jika hari ini kita buat orang lain tersenyum,

esok lusa orang lain akan buat kita / orang yang

kita sayang pula tersenyum.

So, let's treat others the way we want to be treated.
(p/s: God will pay cash okay...zero installment)

Semalam, Tuhan mengamanahkan kita dengan satu tanggungjawab atau masalah yang dirasakan amat sukar dan membebankan. Dalam kepayahan, kita memohon kepada-Nya agar terus diberi kekuatan untuk meneruskan cabaran atas dasar yakin bahawa Dia tidak akan membebankan kita dengan sesuatu yang tak mampu kita usahakan.

Tiba-tiba hari ini, sebelum sempat kita mulakan, Dia tunjukkan satu jalan, yang meleraikan segala kekusutan dan melenyapkan segala bebanan.

Oh, sungguh melegakan!! Adakah ini suatu keajaiban?

Ingatlah, Dia tidak pernah 'mempermainkan' perasaan hamba-Nya. Dia sekadar mahu menguji sejauhmana kita redha dengan ujian dan bersangka baik dengan perancangan-Nya :)

Maafkan aku kerana tak bisa memilih kamu...

kerana Tuhanku telah terlebih dahulu memilih kamu untuk aku...

Jadi, izinkan aku menjalankan amanah Tuhanku...

mencintai kamu sepenuh hatiku, demi mengejar redha Tuhanku...

Aku mohon agar kamu juga menerima aku...

sebagai amanah Tuhanmu.

Maka cintai aku demi Tuhanmu, pimpin aku, bimbing aku,

ajari aku untuk menggapai redha Tuhanmu...

Andai nanti aku tak mampu lagi menjalankan amanahku dengan baik,

tak mampu lagi mendampingimu mencari sinar kasih Tuhan,

maka kau lepaskanlah aku dengan cara yang mulia.

Hantarlah aku pulang ke pangkuan keluargaku semula sepertimana kau menjemputku suatu masa dulu.

Dan aku mohon doamu agar aku mampu meraih redha Tuhanku dengan cara yang lain pula barangkali...

i'm not strong...

i pretend to be one...

or should i say i struggle instead?

it's so difficult to fight the battle inside...

when no one seems to understand...

and support what i do...

what i could do now is "just believe"...

believe in God...

though i seriously have no idea where it leads me to...

i believe it should be to the right path...

insyaAllah

Dear Lord, 

i'm weak...do make me strong...

i'm clueless...do enlighten me with something...

i'm struggling...do make me survive...

for what i long for is the eternal happiness there...

and if this is what it takes to bring me there, please make me happy with it...

make me content with what i have...

get me distracted with other beneficial things...

things that please You...

This feeling is so undescribable.

I guess it’s LOVE.

I think it’s LOVE.

I believe it’s LOVE.

If what I feel is true, Allah please don’t take this feeling away from me.

This is what I’ve been searching for over the past 25 years.

And I am very contented now.

I know life won’t be easy all the time...challenges are everywhere...and I am not strong too...

but I will always pray that:

for whatever things that could strengthen my love to YOU, please make it easy for me, and make me strong for it...

and for whatever things that could lead me go astray, please protect me from it.

I might be taking baby steps to reach the final destination.

I might fall down once, twice or many times in fact.

But I just do not want to turn back!! I have had enough.

I just want to move forward with a clear direction. very clear one.

I hope my navigation system won’t fail this time...insyaAllah.

[Allah (Alone) is Sufficient for us, and He is the Best Disposer of affairs (for us).]'' (3:173).

saya sedih hari ini...

mungkin kesedihan terpendam...

oh Tuhan, kurniakanlah sesuatu untuk menyisih segala kesedihan

yang masih tersimpan di lubuk hati paling dalam...

*oh, tahap emosi yang rendah harus diperangi!!

sejak bila saya membenarkan virus2 jahat menguasai diri...

oh diri, belajarlah mensyukuri nikmat tuhan, menikmati sisi bahagia anugerah tuhan...

dan berhentilah mengira-ngira sisi kekurangan...

*semoga esok akan lebih baik dari semalam*

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Siapa tak mahu pulang berkhidmat di tempat sendiri...
Siapa tak mahu dekat dengan chenta hati...
Siapa tak mahu terima tawaran insan yang pernah dan masih dikagumi...
Siapa tak mahu??...siapa tak mahu??...sudah tentu aku mahu jauh di sudut hati..
 
Tapi, entah kenapa masih berat hati...
tidak tahu apa yang aku cari...
tidak tahu apa yang aku nanti...
tidak tahu apa nasib yang bakal di jalani...
yang buat aku senang untuk terus diami bumi yang dulu-asing-tapi-kini-tak-lagi...

oh, adakah keputusan ini pasti??
Tuhan tunjukkan aku, bimbing hati temui jawapan pasti....
yang terbaik untuk semua yang aku sayangi...

Salam~

 Assalamualaikum W.B.T

I have so many books in my reading list.

Some have been partially explored...

The Magic of Thinking Big by David J. Schwartz

Penyucian Hati by Amru Khalid

Kisah Cinta Sejati Khadijah by Abdul Mun’im Muhammad Umar

Murabbi Cinta by Hasrizal Abdul Jamil

Janganlah Bersedih: Jadilah Wanita yang Paling Bahagia by ‘Aidh Bin ‘Abdullah Al-Qarni

Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus by John Gray

and some are purely ‘untouched’...

Pesan Maha Kasih dalam Kisah by H Zainal Arifin & H Abu Ezzat Al-Mubarak

Menjadi Wanita Super dengan Asmaul Husna by Sulaiman Al-Kumayi

Why Mars & Venus Collide by John Gray

Hope, I’ll manage to finish reading one or two before the year ends...

and I promise myself not to stop buying such books for it’s a long-term investment...

and most importantly, not to stop reading ;))

*and books have been my newly-fancied items as gifts these days...thanks to Mom’s influence :))

Salam~

 Assalamualaikum W.B.T

omo..omo..I just noticed I need another few entries before it counts as 400.
what an achievement for me!! haha

believe it or not, this is my 5th year of blogging....and turning into 6, next year.
I don't expect I could stay this long...because in the course of 5 years, due to many reasons, I don't know for how many times I thought of deleting this blog....and luckily I didn't!! (but, I did change d url..heh)
(actually, I have started writing before 2007....but few blogs had been deleted due to inconsistency in writing and updating...haha)

I have few reasons why I treasure this blog so much.
and one reason being, it stores a collection of MY stories.
I am not an important person so I bet no one would write about me when I die.
But, because my life worth so much to me, I think I should do it a justice by writing about it myself.
After some years, I could see how I have developed physically, intellectually, emotionally and spiritually by the way I write and express my feelings, thoughts etc.
And I am happy to see the progress :))))

Because I don't write for specific audiences like I did years ago, I feel no pressure at all writing now.
I could log on whenever I feel like pouring things out and I could stay idle when I don't feel like doing it.
But, most of the time, it's because of the TIME.

Based on my analysis:

I am most active in 2008. I have written 205 entries. That was during my second year in Australia and it was the time I consider myself BLOGGER TEGAR (skrg, tegarla sangat kan...haha). Many stories to be shared, learned many important lessons in life, tried many recipes and it's when I got to know few blogger friends...and that was the time when blogging was so addictive to me...WAS and WAS. Basically, it IS one the most wonderful years in my life :)))

Coming back to Malaysia, completing my final year of study, practicum, first posting...life was so hectic (kononnya), and I didn't write much...only once in a while. Apart from the commitments (konon), I think internet connection is a factor too. Graf jatuh mendadak, x sampai 40% for the 1st year. Zaman bekerja lagilah....hampeh... x smpai 3 entry per month on the 1st year of working, and even lesser the 2nd year. But, what makes me feel better is, AT LEAST I WRITE....haha..

Oh yeah, now I am currently working on my weebly!!
being a professional-so-to-say....(HAHA), it's been a dream to have my own educational website.
insyaAllah, it'll be my end-of-year project!! HOHO...


And I promise myself to keep writing...not for anyone but for ME, MYSELF :))

adios, amigos!!

Wassalam~

Alhamdulillah!!
Yang ditunggu2 akhirnya hadir jua :))
And this official letter is not just "a thing" coz it brings so many meanings especially to a journey that I would embark on in the future...insyaAllah...

And yes I am dreamING now....and I hope Allah will show me the best way and lead me to best path for the benefit of me, the religion and the ummah...insyaAllah