.::006 : alone,i cry::.

years ago, i think i like reading...
but, all this while, i just read for academic purposes...
can it be considered reading?
i would say no because my defintion of reading is when you read for your own pleasure...not because you are told to do so...
so, in actual fact, i didn't read...at all...

but now, i could admit that i do like reading...
i suddenly found that the internet is very2 beneficial for me...
before this, when i surfed the internet, i only browsed to websites like friendster and friendster and friendster...ntah ape yang best sangat pun i x tau...
sometimes, i downloaded songs, checked mails, read online newspapers...itu je la kot...
alhamdulillah...now i discovered that there's so many other things i can browsed despite all those sites mentioned earlier...
i now frequently visit others' blogs and read online novels which somehow inspire and motivate me to improve myself...
alhamdulillah...maybe God gives me this opportunity to know Islam better, to know Him better, to serve Him better...
i wonder why i didn't realized all this before...
credits to my friends who indirectly help me finding this path...
i know you guys did nothing...it's Him who direct me towards this path...alhamdulillah...
i am glad that He still show me, guide me, shower me with His bless...
i never realize that i nearly off the track when i feel His light shows me the right path i should follow...
i never sit back and reflect...how lucky i am to be born in Islam...
i never internalize the feeling of being a Muslim...
i never do this...i never do that...
why am i so dumb...to act as if i know everything, as it i have everything, as if there's no Him...
why didn't i realize that i have drowned in the ocean of lies that i created it myself...why...why...
didn't i know that death is something certain...
something that would never hesitate to kill me...
something that never stop its way to put me down...
ahh...alone, i cry...