omo..omo..I just noticed I need another few entries before it counts as 400.
what an achievement for me!! haha
believe it or not, this is my 5th year of blogging....and turning into 6, next year.
I don't expect I could stay this long...because in the course of 5 years, due to many reasons, I don't know for how many times I thought of deleting this blog....and luckily I didn't!! (but, I did change d url..heh) (actually, I have started writing before 2007....but few blogs had been deleted due to inconsistency in writing and updating...haha)
I have few reasons why I treasure this blog so much.
and one reason being, it stores a collection of MY stories.
I am not an important person so I bet no one would write about me when I die.
But, because my life worth so much to me, I think I should do it a justice by writing about it myself.
After some years, I could see how I have developed physically, intellectually, emotionally and spiritually by the way I write and express my feelings, thoughts etc.
And I am happy to see the progress :))))
Because I don't write for specific audiences like I did years ago, I feel no pressure at all writing now.
I could log on whenever I feel like pouring things out and I could stay idle when I don't feel like doing it.
But, most of the time, it's because of the TIME.
Based on my analysis:
I am most active in 2008. I have written 205 entries. That was during my second year in Australia and it was the time I consider myself BLOGGER TEGAR (skrg, tegarla sangat kan...haha). Many stories to be shared, learned many important lessons in life, tried many recipes and it's when I got to know few blogger friends...and that was the time when blogging was so addictive to me...WAS and WAS. Basically, it IS one the most wonderful years in my life :)))
Coming back to Malaysia, completing my final year of study, practicum, first posting...life was so hectic (kononnya), and I didn't write much...only once in a while. Apart from the commitments (konon), I think internet connection is a factor too. Graf jatuh mendadak, x sampai 40% for the 1st year. Zaman bekerja lagilah....hampeh... x smpai 3 entry per month on the 1st year of working, and even lesser the 2nd year. But, what makes me feel better is, AT LEAST I WRITE....haha..
Oh yeah, now I am currently working on my weebly!!
being a professional-so-to-say....(HAHA), it's been a dream to have my own educational website.
insyaAllah, it'll be my end-of-year project!! HOHO...
And I promise myself to keep writing...not for anyone but for ME, MYSELF :))
Alhamdulillah!!
Yang ditunggu2 akhirnya hadir jua :))
And this official letter is not just "a thing" coz it brings so many meanings especially to a journey that I would embark on in the future...insyaAllah...
And yes I am dreamING now....and I hope Allah will show me the best way and lead me to best path for the benefit of me, the religion and the ummah...insyaAllah
This year's Eidul Fitr celebration might NOT be the BEST that I had so far but at least, it's NOT the WORST.
Reasons:
got a new stand mixer thus so excitedly made chocolate chips cookies that I used to make back then in Sydney...but it turned to be chocolate DE BATU BATA cookies...duhh...but, what I like about it is the fact that my nephews being so supportive by eating half the jar of the cookies...so I guess, OK la kot kan..heh ;)
before
after
baked a chocolate cake that I used to...but it turned out to be the most DISASTROUS cake I've ever bake. lesson learned: please don't be greedy but patient!!
kipasusahmati...haha
raya for me this year was only on the 1st Syawal...was in no mood of celebrating it...down with slight fever the first night itself...is suffering from sore throat till today....arrghhh...camne nak keje nih!!
However, there's few other good points regardless of everything:
I managed to join tadarus and conduct khatam quran session with my tutees ;) yeah, sounds like a small, simple things but for me, it's really SOMETHING...
after 25 years, I managed to weave ketupat on my own....what an achievement!! haha... I've tried once last 2 years, I succeeded...but I wonder to what extent the performance could be measured... But this time around, I managed to weave at least 5/6 ketupat... OK la tu...rather than nothing aite...
masterpiece...haha
before
after
for the first time, I gave duet raya to my siblings...not much anyway but I feel happy to give them something...alhamdulillah de rezeki lebih kan :) but somehow, the allocation for the niece and nephews decreased a bit..ye la, need to spread the budget kan...haha :P
last year's...this year...tarak..
All in all, I think or I could feel that I've aged...or am aging...gradually...
The feelings towards certain things are no longer the same as before...
And so as the view or perception and also the way I act towards situations...
So, let's just consider this a journey of maturity...haha~
Apa hukumnya malas nak makan ubat sebab malas nak kena makan lepas tu??
Huwaa....saya tau mak dan abah memang emo dengan alasan yang saya bagi... But seriously...saya bukan jenis orang yang susah makan ubat...
tapi....
ubat itu sangat2 melaparkan... and imagine...saya kene makan 4 kali sehari...which also implies i have to take heavy meals 4 times a day!!!
forget about being fat or whatsoever...
tapi perut saya sangat cekang...tolong!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n kesimpulannya...ubat saya memang tak habis on time... serve me right!!
Tahun ini adalah tahun yang paling kasihan untuk abah. The reason being, dia sudah kehilangan peluang menonton saluran2 TV kegemaran seperti Astro Supersports dan Arena setiapkali anak perempuan bongsunya pulang ke kampung. Abah terpaksa mengalah dengan virus2 korea yang dibawa anaknya itu. The best part is, mak dan kakak termasuk kakak ipar juga memberi sokongan yang padu juga...ahahaha.. (yeah...ada unsur2 *evil* di situ)
Culture di rumah juga sudah berubah. Kalau dulu mak dan kakak hanya pandai tekan Channel 101, 102, 103, 104 dan 105 je....tapi sekarang...kalau semua saluran berbahasa Melayu menayangkan program2 yang membosankan, saya lihat mereka juga telah menyenaraikan Channel 391 dan 393 sebagai option. Rasa kelakar la jugak. Tak pasal2 kan the whole household stucked for korean drama. hihi.
Dialog abah yang paling best: Rumah ni dah macam rumah korea rasanye!!
Tapi sekarang baru la dorg sedar bahawa korean drama lagi baik daripada sinetron indonesia yang mak suka tu. Logik sket la if nak banding. At lease I have brought a new perspective towards drama ni. Well, I would consider myself a drama lover so to say...habis sume drama kte layan...baik Melayu, Indonesia , Jepun, Korea, Spanish, Filipino dsb... Tapi yang paling tak bley pegi citer Cina..from back then~
Memandangkan saya 'bercuti semester' lebih awal dari yang sepatutnya...maka rutin harian/mingguan untuk si temporary OKU ni adalah menonton program2 seperti:
Channel 391: The Thorn Birds Channel 393: Loving You Thousand Times, Three Sisters, 49 Days, Family Comes Here, Strong Heart, O, My School, Dream Team Channel 701: CSI, House Channel 132: Maharaja Lawak(haha :P)
Ha..tu la aktiviti berpoya2 di rumah. Ya, memang sungguh membosankan tapi apakan daya...saya dicutikan.. Maka, bercutilah juga otak saya dari memikirkan hal2 stress berkaitan kerja.
Tapi rasanya, rutin akan berubah minggu hadapan. Harapnya, rutin kehidupan bertambah baik...insyaAllah
Alhamdulillah...for the first time this year, I managed to attend a friend's wedding. All this while, all I could do was to "stare" at the invitation...be it the "real" or the "virtual" ones. And I feel really bad about it especially when I missed my besties' wedding...not once but three times already =(
I'm not saying about regret here...but somehow I feel so "ralat". During our school days, we kept on "chanting" these cliche line "kahwin nanti jemput eh". And when the real time comes, "I can't make it anyway!!". Isn't it disappointing??
Anyways, congratulations to all my friends who had tied the knot...
I hope it's not too late to wish you:
“Barakallahulakuma wa baraka alaikuma
wa jama’a bainakuma fikhair"
especially to:
Nor Hanita Paiman & pasangan
Noor Faiz Izzat & pasangan
Nor Faezza & pasangan
and those who had it today
especially...emy, fatt, tiha, wan, sri, shu, n kak sarah =)
Salam~
p/s: going to campus everyday makes me feel young...going to wedding once in a while makes me feel the other way round..omg..omg...haha~
Today is the 7th day of school holidays. This also means that I have been doing NOTHING that I could be proud of for A WEEK. *sigh*
And, today, when I was about to complete the whole series of Boys Over Flowers (read: AGAIN!!), I suddenly had the spirit of completing this one particular PROJECT. I wouldn't want to tell what exactly it is, but insyaAllah, once it is DONE, I'll publish it here =)
This year marked it's own history in my journey of life as it's the first time for me to celebrate birthday more than twice...
Personally, I am not the type who fancy this "celebration" thingy....
Or maybe I should say, "it's not my CULTURE" haha...
However, last year itself I celebrated it twice =)
And this year, as a teacher-cum-lecturer, I celebrated it four times...what a number, aite...heh~
First
Date : 5th November 2010
Day : Friday
Time : 9.30 p.m.
Venue : Noodle Station, Kuala Terengganu
Description :
The event was organized by a particular student and my KT besties: Zati n Salma =)
Yes, it was 2 weeks before the actual date and the reason being, they worried if they did not have time to do it later on since my birthday falls during school holidays...
So, basically...they had a successful surprise I guess...thumbs up!! haha...
It's just that...sometimes, I could sense things okay my dears...
So...don't ever trigger me kay (^_^)
Second
Date : 8th November 2010
Day : Monday
Time : 10.00 p.m.
Venue : Sri Wangsa Restaurant, Gong Badak, Kuala Terengganu
Description :
The celebration was only a part of the big event: TESL 3 Annual Dinner.
It was organized by my beloved tutees...(omg, luckily they did this...or else...dont know what to say about them...haha...*evil laugh*)
I taught THE surprise was directed to Mr. O.D. but suddenly they sang a birthday song...
I seriously wondered if Mr. O.D.'s birthday was on that particular date...
But then again...GOTCHA...it turned out to be for me...
"surprise la sangat yer" haha...
Whatever it is, I really appreciate that my dears...
and as a sign of appreciation, I did what I did...(suap-menyuap kek ha....hahadoii)
Frankly speaking, I rarely did that to just anybody...so to say that "they are not just anybody to me"...huhu...
Third
Date : 12th November 2010
Day : Friday
Time : 10.00 p.m.
Venue : Paradise Deluxe, Kuala Terengganu
Description :
The celebration was again a part of the big event: Math 1 Annual Dinner.
Actually, to be frank, the moment a few of them insisted me on attending this dinner had itself triggered me...
But, I would say that they had carried out the surprise so smoothly that I did not notice things...haha
From one side, I felt awkward to be part of their event but from another side, I felt honoured and appreciated...
So, basically...I would like to say "Thank You!!"
Fourth
Date : 19th November 2010
Day : Friday
Time : 10.00 p.m.
Venue : Kampung Jenjarom, Kuala Langat
Description:
Aha...this was the REAL celebration because it was done on the day itself...huhu...
Actually, I had no intention to celebrate it at a large scale...my family would do...
But, since my uncle was holding a feast, we (read: my cousin, who celebrated her birthday on the 18th, and I) decided to join in the celebration...
We bought 2 cakes and ended up not specifying the cakes to any particular individuals because we have a few cousins who celebrated birthday in November...
Basically, whoever were there would have all rights to blow the candle together...weeeeee =D
I hope that this very first event-like-this could be done in annual basis because it's not merely a typical celebration but more to family gathering...iAllah
So, that's basically it is for this year...
Alhamdulillah...indeed, I feel so blessed...
Thanks to ALL...muahhhhh...
In 2 weeks time, I had involved in 2 accidents...
1 involving cars...
another 1 involving motorcycles...
but none caused any external bleeding...alhamdulillah...
what I learnt is both are SIGNS from GOD...yeah...SIGNS or REMINDER from HIM...
1st accident
Date : 9th November 2010 (10 days before my Bday)
Day : Tuesday
Time : 11.15 a.m.
Location : Kuala Terengganu (right in front of the college's gate)
Description :
- two cars were involved: Red Persona (ours) and Blue Saga (theirs).
- we were at the junction - about to turn right - didn't see the Blue Saga heading to us due to busy road - panic and stopped at the middle of the road right after we noticed the car - being hit by the Saga - the end!
- luckily we were all safe except the fact that the Persona needed to get the two doors and the dashboard changed and I got bruises on my knee and my two fingers.
2nd accident
Date : 23rd November 2010 (4 days after my Bday)
Day : Tuesday
Time : 9.15 a.m.
Location : Banting (at the car's garage)
Description:
- two motorcycles were involved: Yamaha Nouvo (mine) and Yamaha RXZ (my bro's).
- i incidently hit the parked RXZ because the Nouvo's starter didn't function well that i couldn't control it well.
- luckily nothing serious happened except the fact that the front part of Nouvo's is broken and my brother put THE face knowing that someone 'hurt' his beloved bike...but, like it purposely did it...duhh...
Okay...enuf of that sad melancholic story... I know it's my blog and thus it's my right to write whatever I like but too much of such stories wouldn't change anything rite...So, it's time for different genre now...huhu...
Em...let's talk about my graduation day...
Yeah, i know2...it's expired already....BUT as long as I haven't got the pictures yet, I could still consider that as fresh, right...haha...like I care..heh~
Actually, nothing much to tell here...
But, after all, I feel really happy that I managed to do it...
Alhamdulillah....praise be to Allah for making this happen...
I really enjoy this 5 and a half year course...the knowledge i gained, the place i've been, the people i met...everything...everything is just awesome....
And as a bonus, being a top scholar for my uni...that is the biggest 'bomb' i think...
You know, I thought that era has ended 8 years ago...
But who knows, Allah still give me the chance to 'be' and 'feel' that...
and I am really grateful for that...especially thinking that my parents would also be happy with that fact...Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal...
But, there's so many things I failed to do during my graduation day...
1st: taking pictures with my beloved parents...wearing that robe...
2nd: having small talk with Pamela and take at least a picture with her...
3rd: spending more time with my beloved friends whom I missed so much...and take pictures with them...
4th: taking pictures with my unimates...
5th: seeing my beloved lecturers, thanking him and her personally and taking pictures with them....
Hmm....basically I am not satisfied with myself...
I don't know why but I think the day turned out being so hectic that I missed doing so many things...
Happy inside but at the same time feel disappointed...
But, that's life....nothing is perfect aite...
Whatever it is, I AM FINALLY AND OFFICIALLY GRADUATED....YEAY!!!!
Friday (02/10/09) - After school, we had a 'date' with 4SC1 students. Actually, the date was more for Izzati. I just accompanied her. Venue: McDonald Pandan Mewah. Time: 2.00 p.m. We were late for 'the date' because imagine, we reached home at about 1.45 p.m. We were fortunate enough that K*a*k*M*i*n offered to send us home. Thanks kak. We really appreciate that. - We were at the McD till 4.30 p.m. I think. Then, we walked back home.
- At about 6.00 p.m., we went to Paragon to do some grocery shopping. Finished at around 7.45 p.m. and reached home around 8.00 p.m. - By the time we reached home, I think my body was totally exhausted. I need rest...please...hehe
Saturday (03/10/09) - Today, our students are coming to our house. We were not holding an open house... but just a small makan2 for those who come beraya la konon2... - Believe it or not, I have to cook for my students. The last time I cooked was 10 months ago kot when I was in Sydney. I never did that once I am in Malaysia because...you know, there seemed no need for me to do so kan...hehe. So, I tried my best la to serve my students. I did not cook much...just fried bihun...but for about 4 round kot. Just bear with the taste la guys...as long as none of you got diarrhoea...hehe.
- The first group came at about 11.00 a.m. They are 4SC1 and 4SC2 boys + 1 4PA1 + 2 little boys. About 16 of them. Then came the second group. The 4SC1 girls+ 1 4SC2 girls + 1 4SC1 boy. About 11 people. Next, came the 4EK group. 6 boys and 1 girl + their 4 friends. After that, came Ashira's group from 4SC2. She came with another 4 girls... Zaleha, Maz, Nabila and Mai (if I am not mistaken). Kah Weng from 4EK came alone around 5.00 p.m. He's from Fateha's place. The last group to come was 7 4EK boys + 1 4PA1 boys and their 3 friend. They were at our place from 8.30 p.m. until 9.20 p.m. I think. And that was the last group we received. Around 55++ Form 4 students from S*e*r*a*y*a came to our house and that excluding quite a big number of Form 2 students. OMG, what a record la kan...haha. "arienai itsu no" (mimic Makino's style...hehe)
with 4S2RC girls
with 4EK students
with 4SC1 n 4S2RC students
with 4SC1, 4S2RC n 4PA1 boys
- Whatever it is, thanks for coming guys. You've made our first raya as teacher very memorable and special ;) - That night, most of us slept early except me who chatted until 2.30 in the morning. What an energy la kan ;P
Sunday (04/10/09) - Woke up as early as 6.00 a.m. I know it's not as early as usual but I think I still have not got enough rest...hehe. - Having my shower and breakfast before I start packing stuffs. Today, we are moving out from the place. You know, the feeling is never different from what I feel when packing things in Macquarie 10 months ago. Unfortunately, I did not take any pictures during that time or you can see how terrible the house looked like at that time. Like 'tongkang pecah' pun ade..hehe. - My parents came at about 3.30 p.m. and after loading the car with as much things as possible, we rushed back to i*p*b*a and reached there at around 5.00 p.m. - So now, I am back to my normal routine...
Although the week has been so tiring for me, I'll never forget what happened during those period (that's why I wrote it here ^^) because that would be one of the most meaningful week I ever had in my life :)
Too many things happened last week that I have no time to update my blog...Although I am all excited to write about it, it is only now that I can squeeze some time to do that...Okay, lets begin on what happened from Monday until Sunday last week...
Monday (28/09/09) - Visited Kak D's house...beraya la konon2. We were at her place till 4 p.m. I think. Then, she send us back to school for our 'project'
- About 4.00 p.m. ++, we started our mural project. For a non-professional painter who never paints before (referring to myself), it took us almost 2 hours just to paint the background...haha... We ended up going back with the afternoon session teachers... Waaaaa, reached home at about 7.30 p.m. kot coz we straight away went to the night market after school.
Tuesday (29/09/09) - Attended choral speaking practice after school.
- After that, we continued our 'unfinished' work. We started a little bit early today. Managed to finished our simple mural. I know it’s not even reach the standard but that’s all we could do…hehe
- Today, again we went back at 6.45 p.m., together with our friends...
Wednesday (30/09/09)
- Had my last observation. Hooray…I finally free from this torture…hehe
- Attended choral speaking practice after school.
- No more painting today as Izzati had to go back early…preparing for her last observation tomorrow.
- Reached home at about 4.00 p.m. I think...
Thursday (01/10/09)
- My last class with 4EK and 4PA1…so, nothing much I teach but taking photos with them…hehe…
- Attended the last choral speaking practice after school.
- We left school about 3.00 p.m. for we have to get ready to go to Jalan TAR at about 3.45 p.m.
- Reached Jalan TAR at about 4.30 p.m. Looking for gifts for our co-operating teachers and the school. Departed from Masjid Jamek Station at about 8.00 p.m. and reached Pandan Mewah at about 9.00 p.m. OMG, I am already flat by now :(
- OMG, I forget that I might owe *A*c*a*p a lunch treat… He already treated my twice… I don’t feel good if I did not treat him even once. But, I don’t think I still have time to do that… Hmm…bile2 la eh… Thanks anyway ;)
Friday (02/10/09)
- My last day at school. I have to settle few things. First, the Gerko Form. Second, the attendance Form. Third, the Good Luck cards for the students. Fourth, my lesson plan.
- A*c*a*p asked me if I wanted to replace him to enter 4SC2/RC for this is my last day at school. At first, I said no because I do not know what to do with them since I’ll be taking over C*i*k*g*u*P*a*b*i*l’s last period. But, I think he knows that I can be easily persuaded kot… So, I finally agree and what I did in the class was to ask my students to write their evaluation about me. Luckily, I got some task for them to do or else I’m afraid they’ll bored seeing my face the whole day today ;P
- At 10.40 a.m, I was invited to the class when my time should be at 10.50 a.m. I was at the office at that time. Before that, everybody seems to be talking about the party the class is holding. My reaction? Of course I pretend not to know anything about it when I am actually well aware of it. Why not? They collected money right in front of my eyes during my class. What is there to hide my dear…hehe.
- However, as I walked to the block, I met U*d*i*n and Y*a*n on their way back to their block. I asked them why there were still there when their class should have started. They claim that they were from 4S2RC, helping friends to set up things. OMG, this time I was nervous. I don’t know why I feel like that but when it comes to U*d*i*n, I wonder what was the thing that he set up.
- I continued my way to the class. As I reached the class, I saw the door was closed. I was hesitated to open it, thinking of U*d*i*n’s involvement in this conspiracy…hehe. I waited outside and I knew they were waiting inside. Finally I asked, “Korang buat ape ni?” And they replied, “Teacher masuk je la”. Carefully opened the door, I could see few boys queuing up in front of the class and one by one gave me flowers. OMG, this was something that I never expect to happen. That was so sweeeeeeeeet dear. I’m so sorry for doubting you. Maybe you know how much I hate pranks…hehe. Whatever it is, honto ni arigatou gozaimasu!!! I don’t know what to say and what to feel at that moment. All these are beyond my expectation. What I knew is that I feel so touched with your effort. Never in my live haveI felt so happy like this. Thanks guys :)
the cake
the gift
Before we went back, I met the senior colleagues and say thanks for their warm welcome and hospitality. I do not why I felt so touched that I nearly cry when I shake hand and bid farewell to them. Thanks for everything sisters and it's my apology if I ever hurt your feelings in any ways. See ya and good bye S*e*r*a*y*a
Actually, there’s more to write but I feel so tired to do so…
"I choose to remember the past for that's what makes the present me. I choose to record the present for that's what I would treasure in the future. I choose not to dream about the future for I believe it's already THERE; in the Knowledge of ALLAH. And my choices are basically voluntary."
