.::meroyan::.

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Tak tahulah kenapa saya boleh tension gara2 tak dapat beli tix ke Melbourne kelmarin. Dah lama saya dok aim nak beli tix tu. Tp, kononnya nak tunggu masa yang sesuai. Plannya nak beli bila everything dah settle. Alih2, bile dah dapat perfect timing, tix yang saya nak bli tu dah sold out. I knew...ni namanya xde rezeki. So, redha je la. Memangla ade tix lain tp mahal. Kalau ikut, xmo naik bas or train. Tak larat seyh duduk lelama. 12 jam tuh. Bengkek badan ai. So sudahnya, upacara pembelian tix terpaksa pospone lagi. Tunggu hati tenang kembali...hehe. Dek kerana tension punya pasal, kami berempat jadi meroyan malam tu. Dok maraton "mengulangkaji" teks-teks lagu zaman rock kapak. Buat teks analisis sket...kekeke. Kate linguists kan. Ceh, buruk perangai memasing. Jangan buat lagi pliss ;)

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Pastu, sedang mengalami sedikit krisis sekarang. Manusia ni memang hidupnya penuh konflik kan. And dealing with people aren't easy. It never was. Kalau bukan kita yang buat masalah kat orang, orang yang akan buat masalah kat kita. Normal la tu. Yang penting is, how we deal with it. Sometimes, ignorance could be a bliss. Sometimes, it couldn't. Awalnya, memang la macam malas nak amik port. But, bile ade benda tak settle ni, hati memang x tenang. Sampai bile kite nak ignore things. Buat2 x nampak. Buat2 x kisah. Makin lama orang makin pijak kepala kita. Dah la memang pantang orang 'naik lemak' ni. Sesedap hati die je kan. Ingat kite hati batu ke ape. Tapi dalam keadaan camni, I knew that I can't be emo secara melulu. I do acknowledge that all of us didn't share the same "cultural schemata". Things that are apropriate to us, might not be appropriate to others and vice versa. So, I think there is a need for each other to make things clear...like..."okay, this is my rule"...."that is your rule". "Let us tolerate". For people who aren't expressive like me...things like this do hurt me inside. I may be quiet, looking ignorant, but deep inside, everything will be accumulated. And when the time comes, imagine what will happen. I just do not want the same thing to happen again. I knew that was my mistake and that is why I don't want it to reoccur. Right now, I have something in mind of what do to. InsyaAllah, if this is a good thing to do to solve the problem, I believe that Allah will guide me to do "what I think of doing". And if it is not, I should think of other solutions. InsyaAllah, I really hope this problem could be settled a.s.a.p. Tak kuasa ai melayang benda2 remeh temeh ni. Buang masa je.

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Semalam tido umah kawan. Tengok cite. Pastu main wii. Best gak. Tengs zye coz bg try men benda tu. Tak pasal2 jd jaguh boxing kjap...keskeskes. Satu round je mamat tu dah terkulai...ganaz gak ai. Pastu try gak men bowling and men tembak2. Dek kerana penangan wii , tak pasal2 sampai termimipi2. Syok sangat gamaknya men benda tu. Pastu ktrg brekfes sesama. Makan mihun lagi....padahal semalam pun makan mihun gak for dinner. Hantu mihun ke ape...hehe. Pastu sambung buat "teks analysis". hmm, xtau la ape nak jadi kami ni. Kali ni 5 orang plak.

Balik tu, nengok henpon. Kakak kata mak suruh call. Ait, pelik betul. Selalu ai call die xmo layan. Pastu call la cepat2. Risau gak ade ape2 hal. Rupenya memang ade hal. Mak framing baik punya. Sampai nak lemah jantung ai dibuatnya. Tapi lepas explain sana sini...sori sana sini...benda tu pun setel. Pastu kate kat mak...kawan ramai balik Mesia. Kate la tix Air Asia fr Gold Coast cam murah. Saje je gtau mak. Takde niat pape pun. Dengan harapan mak akan menghalang....tapi mak kasi green light pulak. Siap kate mak akan support sket duit tix. Ahh......tidakkkkkk....mak jangan provoke pliss. Money is not a prob right now. Duit tu memang ade. Tapi, this is my final year here. Ade 6 bulan je lagi nak stay kat sini. I am going to miss this place soon. So, rasa sayang nak tinggal. Mak, pliss la jangan provoke...ai memang lemah k if u provoke2. I want to be with u but at the same time, I don't want to leave this place. At least not yet. Memang rasa nak nangis je bile mak dok acah2..."mehla balik..leh tolong mak...buat pe kat sana cuti dua bulan". Mak ni haritu kate xyah balik. Pastu dok test2 plak. Emo nyer pasal, layan perasaan dalam shower. Biase r...shower memang tempat red box ai kan. Homesick punye pasal. Tak pasal2 gak, menulis entry ni sambil dengar lagu raya. Memang meroyan okess 2 3 hari ni. Harapnya esok akan kembali normal =)

Salam~

p/s: antara perkara paling sukar untuk kita deal with is "feeling homesick" dan "rindu". Kalaulah ade ubat ek...