Assalamualaikum W.B.T

i don't know how to describe my feeling right now...
because i don't know what to feel either...

at times, i feel happy, excited and overwhelmed...
but at the same time, i feel sad and depressed...

maybe, the best thing to do now is to be patient...
because this might be a test from God...

i always believe that for every hardship there is relief...

and i hope i could handle this situation in a best way possible...
from the guidance from Allah...

indeed, patience is beautiful =)

"Inna ma'al 'usri yusra"
"Verily, with hardship, there is relief"

"Fasbir sabran jameela"

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

i want to write something here
but i don't know what to write ;P

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

For me, it's very important to set a goal before doing anything...
Without a clear goal, I find it difficult to get things going
for I'll either stuck in the middle or stop doing it there and then...

Call me serious or whatever...
but "doing things just for fun"...is so not me...
coz I find it a waste of time if I do things for no particular reasons or if I see no future of doing it...
unless I have decided at the very beginning that "okay, let's waste the time and let's have fun" ;P

So, sometimes...I don't quite agree with some people's action or attitude towards something that I would consider as a serious matter...
like study, work or relationship for example...

But I know, everyone of us have our own perception towards that...
so, I can't be egocentric by telling them what they should or should not do for I have no right to interfere in other people's life...

All I could do is to learn from other's experience and to do what I believe is the best for me and others too...(if possible) :)

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

I think I have found the answer for all the stupid thoughts and feelings I had before...

I think it's merely because my mind is too free right now for I don't have any big commitment at the moment....

When I am free, I started 'looking for' something as an escapism of my empty mind...

And being infatuated by something ridiculous (I should say it) is one the silliest thing ever happened to me right now...

Praise be to God for I have found the answer for that...

I am now back to my normal self...

So, silly infatuation...gone gone gone forever...daaaa!!!

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Bila kita bicara tentang impian, semua orang pasti memilikinya...
Tapi selalunya...impian itu terlalu jauh untuk dicapai...
Bukan mustahil tapi terkadang kurang realistik...

Saya juga punya banyak impian...
Tapi saya sedar, dalam memasang angan-angan, kaki haruslah tetap berpijak di atas bumi yang nyata...
Menjadi idealistik dan realistik...sudah semestinya tak sama...

Saya akui, sikap pesimis yang ada dalam diri saya terkadang buat saya tertinggal di belakang...
Tapi...sikap itulah yang selama ini buat saya teguh melayari kehidupan dan tabah menghadapi apa jua rintangan yang hadir...
Kerana saya sebenarnya sudah bersedia untuk menerima sebarang kemungkinan...baik yang positif mahupun yang negatif...
Tapi selalunya...yang negatif lebih 'dominant' dari yang negatif...
Supaya kiranya yang buruk terjadi...saya akan berkata pada diri saya..."dah agak dah"...
dan kiranya yang baik terjadi...saya bersyukur...
Itu lah sebenarnya cara saya mendinding diri saya dari kekecewaan dan kegembiraan melampau...
Supaya saya tak terlalu beremosi tatkala kegagalan menjengah datang...
Dan cepat sedar kalau yang berlaku itu semuanya perancangan Tuhan...

Saya tahu saya terlalu berhati-hati dalam melangkah...
Saya tahu kalau saya terlalu 'play safe' dalam apa jua yang saya lakukan...
Saya sedar itu semua dan saya tahu sikap sebegitu boleh menghalang saya untuk menjadi individu yang lebih cemerlang...

Tapi, saya rasa amat sukar untuk mengikis sikap2 tersebut dari diri saya...
Entahlah...mungkin saya sendiri yang tak mahu membuang sikap itu...
Mungkin kerana saya terlalu takut untuk menerima kekecewaan...
Kecewa apabila sesuatu yang saya hajatkan tak kesampaian...

Jadi, mungkin sebab itu juga saya tak pernah bercita-cita tinggi dalam kehidupan...
Dan menjalani hidup hari demi hari...
Yang pasti...hanya redha Allah yang saya harapkan akan mengisi detik-detik perjalanan...
supaya apa yang saya lakukan...walaupun tampak kecil di mata manusia...tapi besar sahamnya untuk kehidupan abadi di akhirat sana...insyaAllah

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

saya tahu saya memang tak patut langsung rasa apa yang saya rasa sekarang...

tapi saya juga tak mampu nak buat apa-apa untuk halang apa yang berlaku...

oh...terasa begitu loser sekarang...

someone, please slap me now so that I can be fully awake...

onegaishimasu!!!

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

It's good to hear that your students like you...
that they appreciate your presence in class...
that they like all the things that you do in class...

but...

it's not okay if you knew it when you won't be seeing them again...
when you won't be teaching them again...

because...

there's nothing could be done anymore after that...
no follow up actions could be taken ;(

so...

this is when I learnt that...
we should always express what we feel and think there and then...
for we never know if there's tomorrow for us...

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

In life, there are certain lines that you should never cross...

But I think...

I have crossed one of it...

Why...

Because I forget to draw it in a first place...

*sigh*
I just hope that it's not too late for me to back off...I really hope that ;)

Salam~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

eversince I watched that 'loca' movie...(or should i say...part of it),
I think I've gone 'loca' too ;P

Salam~

p/s: oh boy, you cannot do this to me... this is so not right =P

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Everyone must have their own ambition...
or at least what they are going to do or be in years to come...

Of course, I have mine too...
even it's just a normal target that everyone would have set,
i've sort of pictured how my life could possibly be in the future...

However, as humans...
we sometimes tend to forget...
that the power of planning and determining is beyond our capabilities...
it is Allah who plans and decides everything...

Sometimes, when we want 'less', we'll get 'more'
and some other times, when we want 'more', we'll get 'less'

Why?
because it's not about what we 'want'
but what we 'need'
and we ourselves won't know what we REALLY need in life...
for we are not the owner of if...
but HIM...

So I guess, for whatever things that happened in life...
we should always believe that it's the best for us...

Yeah, it could be frustrating at times when we didn't get what we want...
but learning to appreciate what we have...
is something really worth doing...I believe

The conclusion is simple:
planning is not wrong...
but never forget Allah in your plan...
for if the plan did not work...
you'll not be dissapointed nor blaming anyone or anything...
because you know He's the best Planner of all :)

Salam~