Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Semalam kami bersantai2 berhampiran Macquarie Lake. Ramai gak yg ada. Sudah tentunya kami berempat (me, syikin, syal n iffah...sedey zai x dpt join), 3 org rakan2 dari Melbourne (kak noni, kak hanim n kak idah) and 2 org juniors (hanin n fariena). Mulanya menjangkan hari akan cerah tapi still panas gak. Takpela...after all it's summer babe.

The best part of the day was obviously the food. Kak noni memang seorang chef yang hebat. Tabik2!!. Dahla malam tu kak noni masak lasagne...smalam plak die masak roti pizza for our breakfast...sedap bangat!! Antara lain, kak idah prepare sandwich, kak noni n kak hanim masak mee spagetti, syal buat kek batik, fariena buat cucur. Me? Tukang merasa aka tukang melantak...hehe.

Ktrg actually x sempat la nak berpicnic sgt sbb makin lama makin panas lak. Dah la matahari OZ sgt membahayakan kesihatan. Sudahnya, ktrg end up makan klat umah je. Masa nak balik tu, I was the one walking at the front...sakit perut la plak kan. Dahla jauh nak jalan balik...hehe. Tp, ktrg sempat gak la main beberapa games kat tepi lake tu. Syiok gak. At least dapat la kenal each other lebey mendalam lagi...hehe.

Lepas makan2 tu, dorg sempat la solat zohor sesama. Pastu kami pun ketiduran kerana kenyang...hehe. Alhamdulillah...rezeki yang baik hari itu.

p/s: arini dah stat klas. And today, ade klas bilinguliasm. harap2 incik iliya casule tu yg bagi lecture instead of verna. tp x kisah la. moga semangat ayamku akan berpanjangan...kekeke. gambatte ne!!!

Salam~

Sometimes...I think I had carried out all my responsibilities...responsibilities as a slave to The Lord, a daughter to my parents, a sister to my other siblings, an aunt to my nephews, a student and a friend. Yet...yesterday, I just realized that I have missed one of my duties. I had abandoned my job as a friend. Thinking that I have been left behind all this while made me realized that it wasn't their fault at all but mine. Sad and at the same time guilty...that's what I feel right now. But I knew, life must go on and it's my choice now as to be idle forever or to mend the idleness. Sorry dear friends!!!

walau bibir tak pernah bermadah
walau tinta tak pernah mencoret
hati pasti tak tahu menipu
betapa aku sayang kamu

thanks Allah sebab dia hadir dalam hidupku

Assalamualaikum W.B.T.

I should be writing about my three-months-holiday in this entry. But I think, what I feel right now is more important than those stories. But still, I have decided to write about what I have experienced during that memorable period of time...maybe some other time...promise =)

Today, 18th February 2008, I have safely arrived at Sydney...a place to be for another ten months to complete my third year of degree. The plane landed at Sydney Airport around 6.30 a.m. and we took a taxi (sort of) to macquarie uni village at about 8 a.m. I am not sure why the driver took such a route (the one that we never used before, which was way too far from the usual one, and which cost us $135). But it's okay, money can do anything!! (I think it is still ok since it cost us about $35 per head (read: there's 4 of us all together). Being in the taxi and having to go through such a bad traffic (read: it's monday morning btw) made me feel so miserable. Ahhh...tensen berkali-kali. Alhamdulillah, with the strength given by Allah, I could deal with it until we arrived at our house. If I am not mistaken, we arrived at about 9.30 a.m.

Upon entering our house, I straight away looked for my u-card and room key that iqa kept when she left sydney for brisbane last december. Bringing the u-card to admin office, I straight away asked the RA on duty to upgrade the card since the new contract began only in January (I was in Malaysia =). I also bought with me a $40 internet card (read: I shared with syikin...hehe). I don't think I can survive living here without internet connection...at least now...before the class commences on the 25th February...which is next week..duhhh!!!

And the best part of the day is, I am missing home already...right here, right now. Missing all my beloved nephews...naqib, nafis, iman and qiqi...ahh...tensen2X. Missing doing all the household chores and daily routine (which seems boring yet enjoyable), missing my special activity with my mom, missing going to kebun with mak and abah, missing every evening touring with my sister and nephews, missing everything...everything about them, everything about you. I just hope everything will be back to normal at least tomorrow. I need some time to adapt with changes...adapt with present and absence...ceh!!!

Planning to do house cleaning tonight or perhaps tomorrow. Maybe some groceries and toiletries shopping should also be listed for tomorrow's schedule. The day after next, buy the text for the first semester and if possible, do some ironing work. Wow...so many things to do for this re-settlement...hehe. Luckily, I have a week before the class start. So, no rush I guess. What important is that I should make sure I have something to do all the time so that I will stop thinking about the homesickness. Come on babe, you are already 21 now. Never act like 12 year old girl...ceceh...self motivation nih. I think this entry should stop here. My stomach needs immediate attention now =) I think instant porridge will do for today or at least for this evening...hehe...

Salam ~~

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Jika mengikut perkiraan, sudah 33 hari saya menghabiskan cuti saya di rumah. Ceh, macam "30 Hari Mencari Cinta" plak...hehe. Saya memang mencari cinta dan sudah ketemu pun chenta hati itu. Mereka semua adalah ahli keluarga saya yan telah saya tinggalkan hampir setahun =) (hehe...bajet lama la konon kan!).

Sepanjang cuti ni, nothing much yang saya buat. Selain menjadi maid merangkap babysitter kontrak selama lebey kurang 3 bulan, saya juga turut menjadi PA for by brother's wedding. Dari kad jemputan, door gift sampai la kepada barang-barang basah for kenduri, saya la yang bertanggungjawab menjadi assistant kepada sesapa yang memerlukan perkhidmatan saya memandangkan semua ahli keluarga yang lain bekerja atau belajar. Cuma saya yang menganggur sekarang, so jadi la sukarelawan sekejap. Amik berkat sket-sket..hehe.

Baru saya tahu, susah gak nak mengadakan majlis kawin ni. Banyak seyh nak kene buat. Bukan setakat banyak perkara harus diambil kira, duit pun banyak gak nak pakai. My brother once said that as women, kita tak yah keluar duit untuk wedding. Ye la tu xyah keluar duit. Kalau kawin dengan mesin cetak duit, memang la xyah keluar duit. Tapi, kalau setakat kita-kita ni, mau nyer xyah gune duit. Habis, nak bayar pakai ape? Pakai daun ke? Takkan la parents nak tanggung semua. My parents bukan nyer kilang cetak duit...hehe. Buatku takut nak kawin...hahaha.

Another thing, masa cuti ni, saya asyik ikut mak abah g kenduri kawin. Buat malu je. Memang la aritu saya teringin nak makan nasi minyak tapi bukan la as frequent as what I did. Rasa cam awkward je ikut mak abah. Mana ade budak dah besar ikut mak abah lagi. Ahh...malu nyer!!! Lain la satu family...ni saya sorang je...as if saya ni anak bongsu. Maluuuuu!!! At one point ni, ade satu makcik ni sampai tanya...saya ni anak bongsu ke? Kosong lagi ke? hahaha...tidak sama sekali!!! Pastu mak lekas-lekas cakap yang saya ni masih belajar. Mak told me that if dia tak cakap camtu, nanti orang masuk meminang...hahaha...boley ke. Then I replied, bagus la orang masuk meminang...Mak juga yang risau kalau saya tak dipinang orang nanti...hehehe. Cerita tu pun tamat disitu.

Masa cuti ni juga saya plan nak amik lesen memandu. Tapi, biasalah prosedur sekarang ni macam-macam. So, maybe tak sempat nak amik lesen P before saya balik OZ. Maybe amik P bulan 12 nanti...lepas saya tamat sesi pengajian di OZ...(yeay + sedey). So, skrg ni buat yang sempat je la. At least terisi juga la masa cuti saya ni. Lagipun, memang saya plan nak amik lesen lepas fly ke OZ sbb mstu saya dah ada duit sendiri. Duit yang saya kumpul masa kat ipba dulu saya guna untuk bli laptop and buat student visa. So, duit yang saya kumpul selama lebey kurang setahun kat OZ tu la saya guna untuk amik lesen dan travel sket-sket. Kire one thing at a time la. Alhamdulillah, setakat ni saya puas hati dan bersyukur sebab dapat buat something dengan duit simpanan sendiri. Sebenarnya, saya dah agak terlewat amik lesen memandu sbb my other siblings semua amik lepas SPM. Tapi, memandangkan saya kene join PKN after SPM dulu, nampaknya, perkara tu dah delay for 4 years. Saya sebenarnya pun bukan la berani sangat. But I guess, lesen memandu is a basic requirement nowadays. Berani ke tak berani ke, I have to do it gak one day. No choice la kan. Sekarang pun rase hopeless sangat without driving license sebab kene depend on others utk ke sana ke mari. Harap-harap saya akan berjaya memilikinya juga suatu hari nanti...insyaAllah!!!

Actually, masa kursus KPP and amik test komputer tu, saya berkenalan gak dengan budak-budak lepasan SPM. Kira adik-adik la tu and saya ni kira "akak" la kan. Owh, tidak!!! Sudah kertukah aku? hehe. Ada ape dengan umur kan!!! Then, saya ada kenal la dengan seorang adik yang saya tak ingat nak tanya nama. Peramah sungguh budak ni. Saya pun layannn je la thinking that I will be a teacher one day and should be a good listener to my student...saya pun praktis2 la...muahaha. He told me many things, about his family, his study and his girlfriend. One fact interest me is that the way he met or knew his girlfriend. The conclusion that I made: we can meet anyone, particularly "that someone" anywhere, anyhow. Comel plak thinking that "crossline" pun boleh, "phone no. that someone bley plak tetiba ade dalam phone contact kite"...macam-macam la. Tu la namanya takdir kan!!

Okay la, I think I should stop here. Makin lama stay up, makin lapar perut ni. So, untuk mengelakkan dari menjadi singa lapar malam ni, I think I should stop right here right now. Daa...

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

This is my first entry for the year of 2008. Not that I'm busy that I didn't update this blog for such a long period of time but I just don't have the mood to write. But today, I feel that this blog should be given some new colours. It must be feeling so sad for being left unattended...hehe.

I guess it's not too late to wish all of you "Happy New Year 2008" though I realized that I was already late for 8 days...hehe. But, I never late to wish you "Happy New Year 1429 Hijrah". Salam Maaf Hijrah everyone!!!

Talking about new year, everybody must have listed all their new resolutions. As for me, I think I would just bring forward the last year's resolutions. Maybe with some additions or alterations here and there...hehe.

Again...Happy New Year!!!

Hari ahad lepas, saya ke MPH di Tesco, Klang. Akhirnya, hasrat untuk memiliki dan membaca satu lagi karya Kang Abik @ Habiburrahman El-Shirazy termakbul jua. Saya akhirnya berpeluang membaca novel "Ketika Cinta Bertasbih 1" - one of the books in my to-read-list =). So far, ok la. Saya suke novel ni seperti juga Ayat-Ayat Cinta. And I'm looking foward to read other novels authored by him after this. Kire demam Kang Abik la sekarang. Apatah lagi filem Ayat-Ayat Cinta bakal release di Indonesia 19 Disember. How excited I am to watch this film. But still, I put no expectation on this. I won't compare this film to the real novel. Mana mungkin filem yang pendek durasinya dapat dibandingkan dengan novel yang setebal ratusan halaman. Tapi siapa tahu filem ini mungkin setanding naskah asal...hehe. Watching its one-minute-trailer has enough to make me feel excited. Siap gile nak download die nyer OST by Rossa. Tapi, tak berhasil lagi. For those yang ade jangan lupe forwardkan ek...hehe.

Alhamdulillah, semalam gak saya dapat access my e-student untuk check result exam. Thanks Lisa for everything. Without you, I have no idea what to do. Remember, I owe you the story about Mr. X, Lisa...hehe. At first, I didn't expect that Lisa had cleared my debt. Saje suke-suke nak view that page. Tetiba boleh plak. Rase nak gugur jantung bile the result page suddenly appeared on the screen. Alhamdulillah, sangat tak sangka dengan result yang saya dapat. Walau tak sebaik mana, tapi berbekalkan usaha yang sedikit, keputusan itu memang suatu hadiah dari Allah. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Tuhanku. InsyaAllah, akan ku tunaikan janjiku pada-Mu. I has promised to myself to focus on my study next semester. Cukuplah, pengalaman ngeri itu jadi pengajaran. Alhamdulillah, semoga tahun depan, saya akan dapat meningkatkan keazaman untuk maju ke hadapan. Bila kita punya wawasan, terasa kehidupan akan lebih bermakna. Moga niat ini tidak akan hanya tinggal angan kosong. Amrien-chan, gambatte ne!!

Sekarang ni, muka saya menggelupas dengan teruknya. My little brother said, "Ina, horrornye muka ko". Hmm...camne nak buat kan. At first, I thought it's because of the habuk and hama etc. My skin is quite sensitive with dust etc. Maybe alergi kot. Then, my sis suspect it's because of the facial foam and moisterizer because I used different product, not the usual one that I normally used back in Sydney. But I said to her, all this while, I faced no problem in using any products...so, why suddenly this thing happened to me? Mak then said that maybe it's because of the climate change. She said that she faced the same thing too when she came back from Mekah last year. She further claimed that one of her friends also faced the same thing when she came back from overseas. Hmm...climate change? Maybe la kot. My skin memang sangat sensitif pun. Mak selalu cakap my skin "cap ayam" la, "second hand" la. Tapi, saya tak terasa pun sebab memang saya sendiri yang tak makan sayur sangat if compared to my other siblings. So, tak blehla nak dakwa-dakwi apa-apa. Tanggung la sendiri kan. Tapi sekarang saya dah belajar-belajar makan sayur balik sebab kat Australia saya makan sayur tau. Tanya my housemates...hehe. But really...it is undeniable that my face sekarang memang horror. Tapi kalau die menggelupas untuk jadi putih sket ok gak...hehe...in my dream la kan. Tak berniat pun...Saya dah bersyukur dengan yang sedia ada...gelap pun gelap la...hehe.

Oklah, entry ni memang merapu sana-sini. Escapism dr menjadi babysitter. Penat seyh...hehe

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Alhamdulillah, pada tanggal 6 December lepas, saya telah selamat sampai di tanah air tercinta. Penerbangan SYD-KUL yang dijadualkan tiba sekitar jam 6 petang nampaknya mengalami sedikit delay. Bukan sebab cuaca atau masalah teknikal pada pesawat, tapi penerbangan itu sendiri yang berlepas sejam lewat dari jadual asal. So, obviously kami pun tiba sejam lewat dari masa yang sebenarnya. Ketibaan saya di KLIA hari itu disambut oleh mak, abah, afiq, iboy dan iman. Kire penuh juga lah kereta malam tu. Sekitar jam 9.30 kami tiba di rumah, disambut oleh lompatan girang nafis dan naqib (bukan girang dek kepulanganku tapi mereka sememangnya aktif sepanjang masa walaupun hari sudah lewat).

Nampaknya, nothing much has changed since I left. But one thing for sure, lepas ni susah sket la nak blogging. Bukan sebab kat rumah takde internet (siap ada wireless tau ^^) tapi sebab masa saya akan selalu teroccupied dengan kerenah 4 orang munchkins yang sangat-sangat menuntut perhatian saya. Walaupun tak menang tangan melayan mereka, saya tetap gembira kerana mereka semua sangat cute. Sekarang, three of them dah mula pandai bercakap, so, lagi la cute...hehe. Dorg dah pandai makan sendiri, pandai pakai baju sendiri, boleh disuruh itu ini...kire syiok la...buleh gak buli...hehe. The only time I have for myself is when dorg sume tidur. Selalunya saya akan online lepas subuh sampai pukul 7 pagi camtu. Lepas tu, macam biase lah, kemas rumah and so on. Dah lama rumah ni tak mendapat perhatian saya. So, memang kerja-kerja massive cleaning tu macam dah jadi my specialty kat rumah ni...even dari rumah lama lagi. Tapi takpe la, saya memang suke buat kerja-kerja tu walaupun saya sebenarnya alergi pada habuk. Habis bersin sepanjang hari dan gatal-gatal pada muka. Lagipun, saya dah beritahu pada emak, saya akan buat secara berperingkat sebab kerja-kerja tu hanya boleh buat semasa dorg masih tidur. So, kire masa yang ada sangat suntuk. Tak boleh nak buat sekali gus or in the end, dorg yang end up 'kemas' rumah. When it happens, you can imagine what comes next when budak-budak 2 tahun yang kemas rumah =)

Okay la. That's all for today. Sekarang ni curi-curi masa blogging sementara dorg tidur. Selalunya, saya kan tertidur sama sebab selagi saya tak ke bilik dengan dorg, selagi tu dorg tak mahu tidur. Hari ni kire dapat bertahan. Once they slept, I left...hehe. InsyaAllah, akan update blog jika ada kelapangan.

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Saya sebenarnya jarang meng'available'kan diri di Yahoo Messenger. Lebih suka mengambil langkah me'low-profile'kan diri dengan cara appear as 'invisible'...hehe. Bukan la ramai orang nak kacau pun...cume rasa nak invi je...that's it. So, kepada kengkawan, buzz je if you feel like chatting with me...insyaAllah...ade la tu.

Last night, I watched High School Musical 2 yang tak best pun if compared to the first one. Busan gile because asyik dok nak menyanyi. Kalah cerita hindustan. Part-part menyanyi-nyanyi tu memang my weakness la...tak larat seyh. Dah la semalam tu kire my first time in this second half year to watch movie. I seldom watch any TV program here although the TV is just in front of my room. Tak berminat la...banyak sangat cerita-cerita tak censored...naik lemas gak. Baik dok dalam bilik, layan blog..hehe.

After watched that movie which ended at 9 p.m., masuk bilik and start packing. Bukan packing ape pun, just masukkan souvenir-souvenir tu dalam beg so that my room tak la messy sangat. Lepas mandi, rase nak blogging. I also appeared available for YM. Then, fez and zura tegur kat YM. Banyak gak kitorang borak. Dengan fez, who was my former schoolmate and doormate masa kat KISAS dulu, kitorang borak isu lain...isu-isu dewasa...haha...(faezza, nanti kite doakan...huhu). Another one ngan zura, who was one of my closest friend masa sekolah rendah dulu. Dengan zura, banyak benda yang kitorg borakkan. Mostly cerita zaman kanak-kanak dulu. Bila fikir-fikir balik, jahat gak masa sekolah dulu. Habis bajet kerek and otai la. Sume nak conquer...ish3X. Patut la dibenci...hehe. Minta maaf sangat-sangat. Dulu, mungkin saya ada masalah development kot...hehe

Kepada yang berkenaan (sesiapa yang rasa tertindas dan rasa pernah dibuli oleh diriku)...

Disini, saya dengan rasminya ingin memohon maaf secara terbuka atas kejahatan saya di masa lampau. Maafkan segala salah silap dan kepoyoon geng kami di masa silam. Mungkin kami masih keanak-anakan pada masa itu. Adalah menjadi harapan saya agar kita semua dapat berjumpa kembali dan merungkai segala permasalahan dan apa jua krisis yang pernah terjadi suatu masa dulu. Marilah kita bersama-sama ambil yang keruh, buang yang jernih.

Memang nampak agak sedikit poyo la kata-kata tu. Tapi, saya benar-benar maksudkannya. Alangkah indahnya jika kita dapat saling berkenalan dengan lebih mesra lagi. Saya dah terlepas peluang itu suatu masa dulu dan saya tak mahu melepaskannya lagi kali ini. Biarlah kita saling berkawan regardless siapapun diri saya dan diri kamu sekarang. Jangan wujudkan lagi halangan untuk kita saling mengenali. Saya memang nak sangat berkawan dengan kamu semua. So, tegur-tegurlah saya jika kamu jumpa saya. Saya kadang-kadang malu tak bertempat...hehe.

Note: Thanks lisa for the souvenir you bought from Cambodia. I took the blue one. Ske sangat...hehe. It's the thoughts that counts...hehe

Pelajaran hari ini: Membina persahabatan tidak sukar. Kita boleh berjumpa seseorang yang baru dan menjadi kawan dalam masa yang singkat lebih-lebih lagi jika wujudnya titik persamaan antara dua individu itu. Tapi, untuk mengekalkan persahabatan itu tidak mudah. Kita mungkin punya ramai kenalan (bayangkan, sejak zaman kanak-kanak sampai sekarang..berapa ramai orang yang kita dah jumpa), tapi, berapa ramai yang boleh dikategorikan sebagai sahabat sejati...yang masih mampu mengekalkan 'rasa itu' walau terpisah dek jarak dan waktu. Jadi, selagi kita masih hidup ini, hargailah sahabat-sahabat kita. Walau siapa pun dia, walau di mana pun dia berada sekarang, walau apapun latar belakang keluarganya, walau apapun statusnya, walau apapun yang dia lakukan sekarang, ingatlah, dialah yang telah mewarnai hari-hari kita, yang menjadikan diri kita seperti yang sekarang. Tiada hari ini tanpa masa lalu...

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Semenjak habis exam ni, tetiba rasa cam nak blogging hari-hari. Actually, I never intend to make this blog like a daily journal for I do not plan to write on daily basis. Most of my previous entries pun selalunya ditulis based on my feeling at that time. Kire cam reflection la instead of a diary which is merely narrative in nature. Tapi, just lately feel gian nak menulis. So, I end up reporting what I have gone through each day. Sounds boring gak sometimes.

I think it's yesterday when I got a birthday present from my close friend, Syikin. The best part is, I didn't aware of the present until she mentioned it. Everything started when I took my luggage from the storeroom. Kitorang dok conscious about the weight of the luggage. I said to Syikin, "Syikin, beg je dah 5kg. Belum lagi barang-barang lain". Then, kitorang sambung borak-borak. Tetiba dia cakap, "Amrien, cube ko bukak beg ko". I was like, apehal lak nak kena buka my beg. Bukan ade yang special pun. Dia nyer request ni as if dia tak pernah nampak je my bag. Bukan bag baru pun. Then I asked her, "Apesal?". Dia senyap je sambil senyum-senyum. Then, I asked again, "Ko ade letak pape ke?". Dia senyum lagi. Lepas tu dia cakap, "Bukalah". Dan dan kantoi kan. I wasn't expected anything but don't know, just suddenly felt something fishy for I once thought of doing the same thing too =) So, kind of expect something gak la when she asked me to open my bag kan.

purezento from syikin-chan

Tara....there it was. A big, hugable teddy bear with a white envolope. I am not sure about my feeling at that time. Actually, I once teringin gak la nak dapat teddy bear but rasa cam tak sesuai je for seorang Amrien untuk memiliki teddy bear pada usia ini. The last time I had my own teddy bear was like 10 years ago. Zaman-zaman sekolah rendah la. Sejak mimpi teddy bear yang dibuang tu hidup, terus cam sedikit fobia ngan teddy bear. Kelakar tak kelakar la kan...hihi. Another thing, I just felt that I am not cute enough to have a teddy bear at this age. Cam kekok gak nak pegang teddy bear. Mungkin pegang baby lagi tak kekok...muahaha (gatal!!). Tapi, jaNgan salah faham. I do love it, Syikin. Deep in my heart, sebenarnya memang teringin and you just made it true for me. Thanks dear. This bear was actually the second teddy I got after the first one from Lina. She gave it to me masa nak fly hari tu. So, kire dah ade dua la. Ada la kawan kirenye. Tetiba cam nak bagi nama lak for the teddy. Poyo tak...hihi. Tapi, ade dengar yang kita digalakkan untuk namakan barang-barang kite. So, maybe kene bagi nama gak. Tapi cam takde idea. Yelah, I am so not the type yang cam comel-comel tu...cam tak sesuai ngan jiwaku...hihi. Any idea?

my two teddy

It's only last night that I hug my big teddy masa tido. All this while, I do love to hug something while sleeping, usually a normal pillow. Hug orang pun ske gak...hihi (my mum cukup rimas bile kene hug masa tido...sometimes, my nephews la jadi mangsa pelukanku..hihi). But, hug teddy baru je semalam. Memula rasa cam takut-takut gak...haha...pelik btol. Alhamdulillah, tak mimpi yang buruk-buruk. Lepas ni mungkin fobia tu boleh hilang =)

Rasanya cukuplah pengkisahan diriku bersama teddy. Actually, this entry was also made an a token of appreciation to my dearie Syikin. Thanks for always be there for me, bear with me, tolerate and keep up with my pace yang gelong nih. Thanks for being patient when you are with me. Kite ade lagi satu episode next year. Selamat bertahan...hikhik.